Monday, September 30, 2013

Do you Believe?

Do you believe that fairytales come true? Love at first sight, happily ever after...the things that little girls read about, and dream about....Do you believe that two people can meet, and have an automatic connect so strong that there is absolutely no doubt that you have found your one?

Not like that's occurring in my life or anything. I was just wondering if you believe.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Stubborn Alcoholic

Recovery, recovery, recovery..... The answer to my problems is ALWAYS more recovery! It's funny that I still don't go straight there. I still spend time mentally running amuck and obsessing before getting into the solution. I know the answer, I know I'm the problem, I know more recovery will fix it...yet for this alcoholic it's usually the 3rd thing I do instead of the first :/
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Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Lightbulb Moments

My growth, spiritual awaking, light bulb moments (whatever you want to call it) come fast and furious. I normally go through a life experience and come out the other side learning something huge. This go around I have learned that I am allowed to reject anything that offends my inner spirit...whether it be a person, a place, something I read, something someone said...I don't have to buy it, I don't have to believe it...maybe that's something you've always know, and it very well could have been something I've always know..but it has always been something I've felt guilty about. Not anymore-there are some people, beliefs, sayings, scripture that just didn't make the cut. And today I am okay with that.

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Monday, September 16, 2013

What has dating taught you?

That I'm stronger than I thought. That what matters isn't what they think about me, but what I think about myself. Unfortunately I have learned that the less I care the more they do. I've learned that men have a little boy who lives inside them that is terrified to get hurt. I have learned that the longer you wait to have sex the better. I have learned that as secure as I thought I was I still have a tendency to change in to what I think they want me to be. I have a lot more...but it's time to go to a meeting!

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Wednesday, September 11, 2013

It is Okay

It is okay. It is okay for me to feel weak, and tired, and sad. It is okay for me to admit that being a single Mom is hard. And it is okay to take a minute and cry about it......

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

About a Girl

If you know me you know I wasn't always the girl above. I am now (most of the time) but I wasn't always. In fact there was a time that I felt like the stupidest person out there. No education, no ability to support my family, a lifetime of dumb ass decisions. Who would ever guess that the lack of education would give me untouchable common sense, or that the inability to support my family would give me drive, work ethic, and gratitude for everything I have, and who in a million years would ever guess that the lifetime of bad decisions would give me the wisdom and power to help others. Who would have ever guessed?