My love life is about as clear as muddy waters right now ...God...part of me is like -you have a ridiculous, un realistic, complete fairy tale perception of what a relationship is supposed to look-but the other part, the other part of me says-Bullshit! Why should I settle! I want to be in love. I don't just want -this will do-I want the whole deal...the omg, I totally love him! I want take my breath away, I totally adore you, I can not believe how lucky I am to have you kind if love!