I am flying to Washington DC next week to share my story. I am super raw right now. In order to get prepared to speak I had to mentally go back to what it was like. I rarely do that....in fact I don't do it at all-unless the story can help another alcoholic. It is uncomfortable, and it makes me sad. I forget how much I have been through-and I like it that way.
I look at my past as a set of my very own encyclopedias. I can take one down from the shelf, share the information, and gently place it back up on the shelf until I need them next. Right now I feel like I have them all open at once, and it is upsetting.
This seems to happen when I share publicly. I guess everyone would do it if it was easy, right!?