Wednesday, February 27, 2013


The Beginning…
The beginning of anything new is rough on me-change, feelings, emotions and the not knowing what to expect. The feeling of being in that odd grey area that is both uncomfortable, and exciting all at the same time.  I hate it.
So ya’all know how I just moved, right!? Well, I’ve been going back to my old grocery store to shop, even though I live 10 steps away from the grocery store at my new place.  Why? Because it is safe, because it is comfortable, because it feels like home… it not  necessarily the better of the two grocery store, but it is comfortable.  So I go back…instead of just  going shopping at the new store, and trusting that  one day I will know it, and love it….I tend to do this with other things in my life also.
When am I going to let go of the old, and embrace the new?   

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Hidden Blessings

Last night I was reminded that everything we go through...ever bit of love, every bit off  pain, every bit of trauma,  is for a reason, and that reason is SO-SO much bigger than us.

I believe that if we are following Gods will than on really special days we get to see how Gods turns our past into a miracle...A miracle that help us to help another person. It is amazing. When I share a situation from my past to help someone feel less alone, less afraid, to give them hope, or courage-it makes whatever that thing from my past was-not matter how painful it, worth it.

And maybe it is just that simple. We go through the stuff we go through, we learn from it -to be able to pass that wisdom on  to another a person.

What if we were look at every situation-painful or not as blessing that God will use down the road? 

Thursday, February 14, 2013



I remember awhile ago my Mom telling me "Don't worry about falling in love, just fall in like"

I guess that's what I am doing right now...falling in like. It is scary, and fun, and exciting all at once. It has been a long times since I wanted to stay up all night talking to is nice. So is he. I am blessed.

Happy Valentine's

For anyone who didn't get flowers today, you deserved them, so here you can share mine.

Thursday, February 7, 2013


Gratitude...I know...gratitude again...but it's where I am right now.

 Lately I have caught myself driving down the street in awww over my own life. I cannot believe I have the life I have today. How did I ever get this lucky, or blessed, or whatever you want to call it?! It brings tears of joy to my eyes on a daily basis.

I was talking to a friend this morning about He was there when this blog saved my life, he remembers that broken women who was lost and afraid, and felt that financial freedom was an unobtainable thing for a single Mom with little to no education. He sees me today, and tears of joy come to his eyes. Tears of joy for someone else's success, I know right!? (I have amazing friends!) I am not the same person I was when this blog started (we can go ahead and thank God for that!)

Today I am living all of the advice I have given, and have been given.

If I was asked to credit my life today to one thing it would hands down be my sobriety......


And now for some Emily reality 101....John and I lasted one month, and promptly took our title of best friends back. And I have a date with a very handsome man on Saturday. GO ME!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Gavin got Braces

Today Gavin got braces. It seems like such a weird thing to be proud of-but I am. I am paying for half. I am at a point in my life that I can provide for my children. I never thought I would be here-and I thank God everyday that I am.

He is doing well. Ice cream and smoothies on the dinner menu for the night!