Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Powerful Women

LA was amazing, and brilliant. I am so grateful I was able to go. It renewed my spirit, and reminded me why I do what I do. It's not always easy to be so public about my sobriety, but I see why it is necessary. If no one is willing to stand on the firing line and talk openly about it then alcoholism will stay the dirty, little shameful secret it always has been. It doesn't deserve that much power.
I got to meet all of the beautiful women in the documentary-what a powerful force.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

LA Bound

For some reason last night I was very conflicted....was I going to LA because of my ego? Were my intentions not pure? Why did it seem that the trip was being blocked if it was Gods will for me to go?

It took awhile, but I finally let go and let God. I am going to LA. I am going because I believe it will help the documentary, I believe it is important-not only to get the word out...but also to show that all of the beautiful women in the documentary are safe, sound and still sober today. To show that sobriety works-if you work it, and that it is 100% worth every ounce of pain it takes to get sober. I believe if they asked any 4 of us "Was it worth it" the answer would be an unanimous "yes." I am going because I am a part of something very special-and I want to be there.

I text my friend that is going with me that we were on a shoe string budget...she txt back ..."Who needs to eat?... lol" Now that's a good friend. I may be broke-but I am so flipping blessed.

Off to LA we go.....................................

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Deep Breath

Two seconds away from throwing in the towel.....

One of the last things to do before leaving was get my car checked to make sure it is trip ready-it is NOT. Needs new front breaks-along with numerous other things. The mechanic is a family friend, so it really does need it.

 I am financially cutting it way to close.

Is it worth it? What are my motives? Do I really need to go?

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Help Emily get to LA

As many of you know a few years back I shot a documentary called "Lipstick and Liquor" Well, that very same documentary has been chosen to be in the "Reel Recovery Film Festival" Which is a HUGE deal, and if I have my way will start to lift the stereotype of the "alcoholic women" We are not bad Moms, nor bad people...we are sick with a fatal disease - the second we take the courageous step into sobriety we are then sick-getting better. There are thousands of women that won't reach out, that won't ask for help because of the judgment attached to  the word alcoholic...well here's the deal it's a disease, you wouldn't judge someone for having cancer-now would you?

Okay, off my soap box and to the point. So far the screenings have been too many miles away for me to attend...but there's one next week in LA...that's only 6 little hours away from Phoenix...I can go! Well, with  little help from my friends. I am gladly accepting donations to help pay for this trip-just click the donate button (it works now) any amount will help! (Thank you ahead of time :)

One more thing - if you live in LA and would like to attend the documentary please let me know. How cool would that be!!!!

(Also I promise to let 'ya all know when it is available to watch on-line :)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

All in God's Time

All of things I prayed for are happening-in God's time. Here's the thing about "God's time" it's sure as heck not mine. God is slower, plain and simple. If I look at my life today and I think back really hard everything I have, everything I am, I at one time prayed about it. Now my expectations from that prayer was for it to happen some time that day, or if God was really busy sometime that week...but that's not how it works...I get it now-well sort of. God has to get you from point A to point B while making sure that you learn the lesson you need to learn, and that you help the people you need to help then if it's the best thing for you he does grant wishes per say, or blesses ever you want to look at it.

Give God all of the responsibility and all of the praise (that's in this really smart book I read) I take that sentence very seriously. Everything I have accomplished, every bit of Grace I have, everything I am today is because of God...that's it. If I look at it any other way it's ego (easing God out)  Now that's not to say I haven't worked really hard, I have...God has just taken that hard work and worked it all out in a way that no human power could have...and for that I am grateful.

Monday, October 8, 2012

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Check out my brilliant cousin-in-laws blog. She is such a fashion genius!! Her blog is not only darling, but smart!!


Sunday, October 7, 2012

Weight Watchers

I was thinking today how bad it would suck trying to do weight watchers if I was still drinking. For those of you who know nothing about weight count points-a chicken breast is 2 points- a can of beer is're only allowed like 25 points a day... Catch my drift?? Even with the 46 cheat point you get per week you would have to keep it at no more than like 4 beers per flipping way could I have ever done that...control my drinking?! RIGHT!?

That's really all I have on my mind today. Life is going along pretty well.....what about you guys??