Monday, April 30, 2012

The Battle

I am fighting one right now, and it sucks. If I were to go back and read this blog from the beginning I bet I have a bitched about my weight a ton. It is the one thing in sobriety that I haven't been able to tackle. I guess what really makes it hard is that I was very skinny before I got sober. Most people lose weight, but not me, I gained. I can't stop eating junk. I am totally eating at my emotions, and I am heavier than I ever have been. I have no moderation button-NONE. Everything I do, good or bad, I do in excess...there is one thing I am very good at...quitting things...once I am done, it's done. I stopped drinking, and haven't drank since, I quit smoking, and again haven't touched it since...but food, you have to eat!!!??? Which would mean I have to moderate...CRAP! I was reading through my blog the other day and got to the post in January were I set my intentions for the year...my higher power has allowed me to accomplish every one, except this. I'm really frustrated. I feel better emotionally, physically, and mentally when I eat healthy...you think that would be enough...but it isn't, at all.

Dear God,
Will power isn't cutting it. Could you please help me.
Love, Emily

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Driving while Buzzed is Drunk Driving

I haven't posted this in awhile.....so just in case you didn't already know... DUI's are harsh, and the only way to not get one is to not drive drunk, or even buzzed for that matter.

Friday, April 27, 2012

My Life

Rocks serious ass! No joke..it does...sometime it takes my breath away. This morning my Mom asked me how it felt to be past all the pain....amazing, wonderful, shocking, that's how it feels. I put myself through hell when I was out there...I kicked my own ass mentally, physically, and spiritually.

When I first got sober everyone told me "Just hang on, don't give up, and miracles will happen in your life" I didn't really believe them, but I didn't want to die, and I was tired of going crazy...so I hung on...THANK GOD. Because like I said... MY LIFE FLIPPING ROCKS!

Last night we catered an event for our local radio station KNIX...it was a blast! How cool is that?? Here is a picture.....


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Reflection

A year ago when I dreamed of my perfect life, it was nothing like the life I have today. Yet the life I have today is everything I've ever wanted. Amazing how that works.

Trust God, do the next right thing, help others, and don't take your self to seriously. There is an amazing life waiting for you.....GO GET IT!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Match.com

So, I signed up for match.com. I made two mistakes, well one actually...my "name" is emilyism, and I said I had a blog, without thinking, AT ALL that someone would google emilyism and find my blog. Should I have protected myself a little bit better?? YES, do I find it creepy that someone googled me...YUP! I guess because I keep myself so uninvested in the people I chit-chat with on match, that until there is a need to, I would never think of googling them. Actually I don't have the time to be googling people.

It isn't the first time some guy I'm thinking about dating has read my blog, but here's the deal...I don't like it. It's like reading the cliff notes to my life. Why even bother meeting me if you already THINK you know all about me, Anyway, sorry to vent, it just really annoyed me.

So, if you're a dude that would like to take me on a date GET OFF MY BLOG.  xo, em

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

 I so badly want to feel the drive to write, to tell you all about what's going on in my life...but I just don't have it, I haven't in awhile.

Maybe because life is sort of boring these days...kids, work, baseball, kids, work, baseball. Oh, and the thing that allows me to keep all of that, my sobriety.

It is so very quiet on here, I sometimes wonder if anyone even reads this blog anymore?

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my 38th Birthday. The love I have received is amazing. Face book is awesome for that!

If you know me in "real" life, then you know that I am a Birthday Diva. I start announcing my Birthday like a month ahead of time. It's sorta a family thing, as my big sister is also a Birthday diva. Maybe it was because my Mom made a big fuss over our Birthdays when we were kids (thank you Mom!) Anyway...I'm off to get ready for dinner with friends.

I <3 my Birthday!!!!!!
And you!!!!!!
And being sober!!!!!