Hi Everyone its Doggielover aka Chris, Guest posting for Emily, Hope your all well, I need your input!!!
We all have it, we all know it, and we know in some cases it is our diseases strongest ally.
I am living in the fear right now and I hate it, I can’t stop the fear in my mind trying to take over, trying to lead me to my old friend, alcohol. If led back down this road what will happen to me? What will I become? How will I make a life that I truly desire and know I am capable of having? I need to stop, I need to remember I am in control and I need to suck it up and say I need help!!!!
I NEED HELP!
I have so much gratitude for all I have right now. I have a place to live; I have people who love me. I do have faith, but maybe that is where I am lacking, am I not giving it over to my HP? I am the person who will do the legwork, but I am now living in the fear of not being able to reinvent myself in a new place again. I need to market myself because my work isn’t marketing me like they should. I am a new novelty to them and I know I have to take the reigns, but I also have to push hard against people that think it will just happen. Guess what, it doesn’t!!! I am on the computer researching, and I am picking my marketing friends brains. I will do the work, but I need to get out of this fear. I have a big meeting on Monday and I need to come across strong, positive and worth paying for. Maybe that is it, I am not feeling my own self worth. I know a lot of women in my program (AA) that feel that way.
I need help; I am sitting in my fear. What do you do when you sit in your fear and need to rise above it? When drinking is not an option?