I have it, I have it....:the holiday spirit!! I was scared I was just going to walk through Christmas with a humbug attitude. It made me sad, due to the fact that I once LOVED everything about the Christmas season. Then I thought about it, and decided to give myself a big fat break. I have had a tough few years and it is okay that I'm not as joyous as I once was. I may not be as joyous, but good God I am grateful. Each one of those hard year (at least the ones in sobriety) have gotten a little bit better. Not in the over night way that I expected, but slowly and surely my life life has gotten better each year.
I am so glad I hung on-so stinking glad!