LYING, DECEIVING, DISHONESTY, MANIPULATING.....These are all things that I wanted to talk about today. When I was drinking, I was the master liar. My husband would call home from out of town and point blank ask me if I was drinking - my answer, of course, was no....when I was sitting there with a drink in my hand. I would be drunk and say something I was supposed to keep to myself - get caught - and lie like a rug to blame someone else...who cares who got hurt - as long as it wasn't me.
I look back at one of the most liberating changes I made once I became sober and that is becoming honest....and I mean honest to the core. It was hard when I started, but by being honest in all that I do and say, it has become something that I truly cherish. Don't get me wrong - I'm in no way perfect, but when I "do" occasionally slip up and fall back into my old ways, I now "face the music". I might get hurt, get embarassed, my ego takes a hit - but I own it and do whatever it takes to make it right.
The worst person you can lie to is yourself. I successfully stayed as far away from getting sober for a very long time by continuously lying to myself. Once I got honest with myself, I found that getting sober was a bit easier to consider - because then I knew the truth...I was an alcoholic and I needed to get help, from whatever source was available wherever it was available. Which could also be described as "was willing to go to any lengths" to get sober.
If you are currently lying to yourself or others about your drinking, today is the perfect day to stop lying and give the truth a try....you might just experience that liberating feeling I discovered not so long ago. The truth really does set you free :)
Hope everyone is having an awesome Sunday! I'm off to a mandatory drug & alcohol meeting at my son's high school. Oh how I pray for him and all of his classmates that they don't ever have to battle this wicked, evil monster that we all fight every day.
Love, prayers and hugs to you all!
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