Hello & Happy Sunday to everyone! It was great to see so much response and conversation on last Sunday's post, so for those that missed it, we're doing a "roll call" so everyone that follows (those that comment as well as those that just read) can sound off and tell everyone a little about themselves....anonymously, if you prefer, of course :) Just include the following - can look at last Sundays post to get an idea of the format: State/country you live in, marital status, kiddo status, Issues, Goals and Sobriety Date or current status with alcohol. Would be great to see some additional comments from those that read & follow :)
I'm in the midst of reading "Best Kept Secret" and the passage I was reading before I fell asleep last nite around midnite sent chills up & down my spine and they were still there when I woke up this morning. It reminded me of this from my drinking days:
I remember my heart beating faster and faster the closer and closer I got to the liquor store - wow - noticed it back then, but didn't really pay much attention to it or attribute it to the fact that I might have a problem. The other was being completely out of alcohol and absolutely needing it NOW....but what about the kids???....they're asleep - they won't even know I left...I'll be right back - and then running off in my car to the liquor store before they closed at 11 p.m. - WTF!!!!! What was I thinking??? What if something would have happened, what if they would have woken up and found that I wasn't there? These questions didn't haunt me at the time when I was actually leaving them home alone to get to the liquor store, but oh boy do they haunt me now! Looking back at my behaviors after being sober for quite a while, I am utterly shocked at the lengths that I went to for my vodka...guess I just didn't see it or realize it back then when I was actively drinking...scary to think about, but always remember this.....don't dwell on the past, but don't forget it either....when I tend to forget how it was, I begin to teeter and toy with silly ideas that I can drink like the normies....so I've made it my mission to never forget my past and my stories and what it was like, cuz I don't ever wanna go back there again!
Great book by the way - really quick read for me - I started yesterday and will be done with it tonite before I go to bed :)
Hope everyone had a super sober weekend - I know "somebody" that follows on here that could share her amazing story of a "victory" this past weekend - only if she wants to though and anonymously of course!
Hugs to all!
Guest posting for Em