I am super bored today. I have heard that boredom is a sign of self-pity, I sort of think that's crap, but whatever. I do get that I'm just not use to relaxing and taking it easy. Most alcoholics feed and create sick excitement. I am no exception. And though I don't really do that in sobriety I do find myself bored quite often.
It doesn't help that I'm broke and can't afford to do anything. Okay that's a little bit of self-pity:) I was thinking earlier what I would do if I had money and the truth is I would go shopping. I need nothing, I don't need to go shopping. And I would be doing it to "feel" better. God, I am such an alcoholic.