The other day I was sharing with a friend my favorite part of sobriety...my very favorite part is being able to stay in the moment.
I told him the exact moment when I understood that through recovery I had received a gift I call -moments-
Gavin and I were in the hot tub playing. He was doing the whole "Watch me"..."Count how long I can hold my breath"..."Let's play ----" and I did, and I loved it and I didn't want to be anywhere else in world. I wasn't needing to run to fridge to get a beer, or a smoke. I wasn't obsessing over alcohol or wanting to be on the phone drunk dialing. I was completely in the moment. It was amazing. I often use the saying "Right now, right at this moment there is absolutely nothing wrong" On that day that I really actually "got" what being in the moment meant not only was there nothing wrong, but everything in my world was right.
Now don't get me wrong I can't always stay in the moment. In fact sometimes I am so far out of it that it's ridiculous. But I know, I know how wonderful it is to be right in the moment. It is truly where the magic is:)