Saturday, May 14, 2011

Having it all Together

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Right now not so much. It's staying sober through the times you don't that is the challenge. After a few year of sobriety I came to the conclusion that no matter what, drinking would make it worse. And it would. Now don't get me wrong there are times I still crave numbing out, but the wreckage it would make is so not worth it. And though sometimes feeling my feeling is tuff, I am grateful to be feeling them at all.

"Right now, right this second there is absoultly nothing wrong." I don't know why I felt the need to add that, but I did:)

1 comment:

  1. Hi Emily,
    The pain of self-destruction and the loss of myself was the "gain" after numbing myself out.

    For me it was always running away of emotional pain that came anyway.
    In my opinion is pain never endless unless you decide it to be like that.

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