Sunday, May 8, 2011

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

I can remember waking up on Mothers Day hungover, tired, achy....basically feeling like shit and having my two sweet boys still running into my bedroom with the cards that they'd either made or bought for me....they both always had big smiles on their faces. The way that made me feel was absolutely horrible....I didn't deserve those two sweet boys' smiling faces or their cards. That's the way I used to feel when I was actively drinking.

Today and last Mothers Day were different.....those same two sweet boys came running into my bedroom with their cards and I was happy, joyous, free and able to feel proud of my accomplishments as a Mom. There were no horrible feelings of being hungover or guilty or undeserving....I only felt pride. Pride for picking myself back up when I hit my bottom and doing the next right thing....getting sober - and not for them - for me! If I don't focus on being the "best me" I can be, then I can't be the best Mom for them.

I wish I could relive those 4 or 5 Mothers Days that I was hungover, but I can't...I can't dwell on the past...I can only move forward, one day at a time, and continue to keep God in the forefront of my life, actively work my program, help others and love myself enough so that I am able to fully love others.

And that is my hope for all the readers out there on this Mothers Day....that everyone that follows here begins to love themselves enough to put the bottle down and begin building an amazing sober life that is better than you could ever imagine.

Happy Mothers Day to all of the moms out there that have been blessed with children....and to those that have been blessed with furry, four-legged kiddos too! Mommyhood rocks and so does sobriety! Hugs to you all!!!
Annette

5 comments:

  1. Where is everyone??? Hope everyone had a Happy Mothers Day :)

    Was saddened to hear the news yesterday of a dear friend's death after a very long, courageous fight with cancer. He was a wonderful husband, father of 4 terrific boys and an amazing coach to many, including my oldest son. God got an awesome angel yesterday and I hope He continues to be with the family to help them thru this very difficult time. R.I.P. Dean-0.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Hi, Annette --

    I appreciate your posts and you are an inspiration to me. I want to be where you are (and the last post by Emily about serotonin levels really hit home with me. I'm taking an anti-depressant to increase my serotonin levels. I always blamed my age and menopause on that, but maybe it's due to drinking too much).

    I can't seem to find the pink cloud everyone talks about..

    ReplyDelete
  3. Anon - tell me a bit about where you are right now....with drinking, sobriety, life, therapy, feelings, etc. Maybe I can give a suggestion or two......know that I am prayin for you to find what I have....I mean that very sincerely.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Hi, Annette --

    I would be happy to, but I don't want to post publicly. If there was some way we could exchange e-mail addresses? I sent mine to Emily a couple months ago, asking her to pass it on to you but I don't know if that happened.

    You are an inspiration to me and I am very happy for you...

    ReplyDelete
  5. I never got it. Let me email her today and I will ask her to pass it on to me....I'll email you as soon as I get it. Hang in there and we'll talk soon :)

    ReplyDelete