Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Spreading the Dis-ease

I haven't been posting because I'm in a super ugly place right now. I
just feel like crawling in bed and giving the hell up. I know the only
people that would hurt are the boys and I, but still giving up sounds
great. Not drinking, by the grace of God is nolonger what I look to as
a solution (mostly because getting sober was really, really hard and I
NEVER want to do it again) but completely ignoring my problems sounds

Such as ignoring the fact I don't have the money to pay my rent this
month. Could everyone say lots of prayers that it does..cause it ain't
looking pretty:(

Sorry to be such a downer. I'm trying to stay in that place of knowing
it gets better, but it's hard sometimes.

Sent from my iPhone


  1. Emily,

    Please know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you. I wish there was something I could do to help you, but I just wanted you to know that I am here ... and so proud of what you've accomplished and the inspiration you are to so many.

    <3 KL

  2. Hi Emily,

    I know you posted a P.O. Box # awhile ago. I would be happy to send a few bucks for your rent. I can only send $3.00 but, if everyone sent a few dollars, you'd have something toward the rent. Please, post the P.O. Box #
    again and I'll put it in the mail tomorrow. I live in Chicago, we just got 22
    inches of snow, it may take a bit longer to get to AZ.

    Love to you!

  3. On this main page, where it says "contact Emily", the P.O. Box is listed...or there is a donate button on the right hand side of the main page.

  4. Hi Emily,
    So you have a temporary cashproblem. I have been there.
    When I have a problem I ask for God's help with a very clear question for an answer within 24 hours and let it go.
    I always get an answer but mostly in a way that looking back that my sudden action/clear thought was the solution.

    Looking back was drinking never the way to solve anything because it always made it worse.

    I used to be unable to ask for help except when I was intoxicated so I respect you for sharing your problem in a sober way.
    Love & Light.

  5. I am praying for you, Emily, and thinking of you. I wish there was more I could do to help. Your blog has been so helpful to me -- I am on Day 8 and find that your blog helps me every day.

    Please let us know how you are doing.

  6. "I haven't been posting because I'm in a super ugly place right now." THAT IS WHEN YOU SHOULD BE POSTING!

    I am also undergoing major financial stress. Made arrangements with the mortgage company this month, and yesterday just lost my biggest client!!! UGH..But know what, it will work out the way it's supposed to. Of course I am doing the footwork, but I have to turn the worry over to God.

    Good story from years ago. Money was tight, my ex was behind in his child support. I was sitting on the front steps in March right after the snow melted...Stressed and praying. Something caught my attention out of the corner of my eye. Here in the bushes was a child support check that was buried under the snow. My ex wasn't behind like I thought, here the mailman was just being careless. Another one of those God things.