Sunday, February 13, 2011

Sobriety Sunday

Obsession of the mind. That is the alcoholics problem, no matter what
we do, or how hard we try, we can't get the thought of alcohol out of
our minds. It is what makes us an alcoholic. And for me, it is why my
recovery program is so important. If it wasn't for recovery I would be
obsessing over flipping everything. It isjust what I do, it is just
where my brain takes me. If I am doing the things I have been taught to do for my sobriety then
it's pretty quiet upstairs, if I don't it is a total flipping mess. It
really comes down to how much peace and serenity I want, and how hard
I am willing to work for it. What about you? What are you doing for your sobriety today? Sent from my iPhone


  1. Hi Emily,

    Today for my sobriety I focused on what I can do to not loose myself in worst case scenario's.
    I like to have a fresh start on mondays so my house and my clothes are clean, my finances are under control and I made a planning for next week.
    The most important I did was looking back at last week and what I did achieve.
    I went for a long walk to "clean" my thoughts.

    The things that need changing I take one step at the time because otherwise I am lost.
    I have a cat that notices when I am to busy because she starts asking for attention by very loud miauwing and stalking me in the house!

    Have a happy sober 24h!

  2. I began my day this morning kneeling and praying to God to put love into my heart, bless the words that come out of my mouth and keep me sober, just for today. I did a little reading in my 12 & 12 about the 4th Step which I am once again preparing to do. Spent the day with my family at soccer and baseball games and was grateful for another sober day on this Earth and grateful for healthy children. I spent some time with a woman from my homegroup yesterday at her work. She's an RN in a NICU unit of a local was very heart-breaking and humbling at the same time. I am sober by the Grace of God and AA.....I don't want to ever drink again, I want to be sober and enjoy the beautiful, healthy children that God blessed me with. Happy Sunday to everyone!...and Em - e-mail me back :)

  3. Please pray for me...obsession got the better of me, I fell back into the crap and I am starting at square one. I am ashamed, broken and lonely.

  4. Hi Guccigirl,
    So you fell and now you stand up from that place and not further away.
    Everyone wants to stop without relapses but if not: Don't give up!
    Shame or guilt is only a loss of energy.
    Go for it!

  5. Hi Emily,

    You wrote.... "we can't get the thoughts of alcohol out of our minds".....
    This is not about me.

    I am so glad that I don't drink anymore and started living like a non-drinking alcoholic what means that I am not sick as long as I don't drink and take responsibility of my life.
    My thoughts of alcohol are only to never forget where I came from and to be happy with my life. They are not at all obsessive.

    I was obsessed untill that spiritual moment of letting go of alcohol finally reached me.
    I wanted that so much and was so happy when it finally happened.

    In my opinion it is important to see what is behind the constant thoughts about alcohol.
    I think that is different for everyone.
    A drinking-alcoholic is like a burning fire. First you stop the fire and then you have to look for the cause.
    One doesn't excist without the other.

    Lots of energy to let go of your obsessive thoughts.

  6. Guccigirl - You're back aren't you?....that's the first step. We might fall along the way, but as long as we get up and try again, that's what's about "progress"...not "perfection". I know firsthand how you are feeling right now - remember, I relapsed once in Oct., once in Nov, and once in Dec. I know it sucks, but hand those thoughts and feelings over to God and begin again. I did it and I know you can too! No need to be least you're back - that's all that matters! Will be prayin for ya girl!

  7. I am shaky and terrified, but looking ahead. This weekend was a series of horrible choices, thinking I had it all together, when I obviously don't. I had a friend come into town, I have known him for 20+ years, used to have a huge crush on him in my early 20s, but he is now married with 3 kids. I thought we would go to dinner and catch up, no big deal. How wrong I was. I got drunk...ugly, fall down, out of control drunk. I slept with my married friend, have little to no recollection of this, other than waking up in his hotel room, sans clothes. I crept out of the room and down to my car at 7am (to the disapproving stares of the people in the hotel lobby). Spent my day at home crying, sitting in a hot bath, and feeling like a whore. I will never be able to talk to this man again, I am humiliated. I have never been the kind of woman that sleeps with married men...apparently my loneliness has lowered my morals.
    I am going to a meeting this morning, as much as I would rather lay in bed and die. I can't get the taste of the alcohol and shame out of my mouth, but I have to try. Thanks to all of you that share my story, we are all bound by a common thread. Please don't judge me for my actions, I am definitely sorry,embarrassed, guilt ridden, and disgusted enough with myself.

  8. Guccigirl.....let's just say that I can totally relate to your situation over the weekend....hang in there - this is NOT the end of the world. You will be able to move forward....remember: don't forget what happened, but forgive yourself for it and move on.

  9. I agree with Annette, guccigirl. We are all human. My heart aches for you, but you must forgive yourself and move on. Know that I will be praying for you --

  10. Guccigirl, give yourself a break!! Your back on track, you went to a meeting. He also made a choice, he could have stopped it. Be kind and loving to yourself. Talk to yourself the way you would talk to a friend in the same situation. We all love you, please take care of yourself!!

  11. Guccigirl -Thank you for sharing as it lets go of some of the power that could hold you back. - We all know shame and regret. Universal. You are worthy and God loves you. Never forget that each day is a new begining or start and He wants us whole. Because you feel your feelings in this situation is telling that God loves and wants to make you whole. Let us all move forward.. each day. Hope is beautiful life. You are not alone.