I am back to having that feeling, the one where it feels like someone is squeezing my brain. It happens when I am stressed and have to much on my plate. Part stress, part depression I guess. I know as long as I stay sober and stay out of isolation I will be fine. It will pass, it always does.
I think of isolation as my diseases trying to take me back, trying to kill me actually. If it can keep me away from people, my support system, and meetings. If it can keep me all trapped in my head thinking no one could possibly understand, and that I am all alone...it has won. But you see I'm not alone, none of us are. And as long as we have a support system in place we never will be again.
You are not alone, that's just the cunning, baffling disease of alcoholism either trying to keep you, or take you back. If if you are feeling alone. reach out. Share your story...your feelings...no one can do this alone...and no one has to.