Friday, January 7, 2011

Sitting on my Hands

Someone commented and asked about what to do during cravings. It totally reminded me of times in the beginning of my sobriety when I had cravings so badly that I could feel them to my core.

I remember one day in particular when a craving came that almost paralyzed me. All I knew to do was sit on my hands. So there I was on my couch sitting on my hands praying, and praying for God to remove it...he did, and you know what? I've never had one like that again.

Prayer I tell 'ya, it's a powerful thing.

Cravings....What do you do?


  1. Early in my sobriety, I didn't really have any cravings because I was on a big ol pink cloud and so incredibly happy to be sober....however, those cravings obviously found me in the past 3 months - but I believe for a reason. I relapsed 3 times over those 3 months and every time was the same...."I'm gonna drink like a normal person"; end up drunk after drinking an entire bottle; wake up the next day to guilt, shame, pain, etc. After that last time, this is what I do for myself when a craving hits.....I repeat over and over to myself the definition of insanity - doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome. This helps me because a) I just experienced this during my last 3 relapses, so I now know that the outcome if I do it again is just gonna be the same guilt, shame, pain, etc., and b) I KNOW deep in my heart that I am NOT I don't give in to the cravings that hit me and prove to me the definition of insanity. This may sound kinda silly to others, but it truly works for me. Hope this helps.

  2. I remember in the beginning(I am in my third year of recovery) it wasn't so much as cravings as I would find a bottle in my hand even without thinking and and having to "snap out" of it sort to speak. Which was easier to do when I wasn't alone, but I remember this one particular time I was alone and there was alcohol in the house as my husband drinks still, but anyway I was having a really hard time dealing with whatever drama I had going on in my head and I just honestly fell to my knees and prayed like I have never prayed before. I knew I had to surrender at the moment and I honestly don't even know how long I was there, long enough that it took me a while to get up these old knees can't take that.Anyway in all seriousness I have never given my control or myself to anyone like that before, especially God. The whole time I was going over everything in my life, my kids, my family, myself and I came out of the experience with a different opinion of myself.Stronger and more forgiving of my faults. I remember that moment like it was yesterday and I keep going back to that moment an even though it was my weakest moment in my life it makes me smile because I made it through that moment and even though I thought I was alone I wasn't and never will be.
    Never shared this with anyone. I never thought I would be where I am today.Happy with myself and sober. It will be the hardest thing you do in your life but man it is definitely worth it! Sorry I rambled, I am not very good at telling stories as you can tell.Thoughts and prayers out to everyone and hope 2011 is the best yet for all of us!
    Take care,

  3. I have two strategies that I use for cravings. The first is postponing the drink - cravings are transitory, so I tell myself that if I still feel this bad tomorrow, I can drink then, but not today (usually tonight, since my cravings come after dark for the most part). By the next day after sleeping the craving is invariably gone and/or I feel better (or at least "different").

    My second strategy is to "think the drink through to its logical conclusion". In my case, that can be a number of really terrible consequences: a horrific hangover with the accompanying panic and anxiety, my son finding out I drank which would destroy and terrify him, another DUI (which would be significant jail time) - basically it would totally derail my life. If I can focus on the negative consequences that almost invariably accompany my relapsing, the healthy fear of those will override my desire to drink at that moment. My version of "keeping it green".

    Happy New Year to everyone!

  4. I was the one who asked that question yesterday. Thank you everyone for your advice, it helps. I will use your techniques when I have a craving, which will probably be later today or tomorrow. I can't seem to go many days without a craving.

  5. I was freaking out yesterday, I just kept thinking of a drink. I don't know what brought it on, i think it was because my husband commented on my sobriety. He told our Dr. that I was strong willed and that I am handling things really well. WTF!! I felt happy that he feels that way, but then I started to worry about disappointing people if I messed up, I am not that strong, i know that I have to turn my will over to my higher power but it FREAKS ME OUT!! I was reading a book about an alcoholic, and in the end it talks about his relapse and that he started to smoke crack, I then thought crack sounded good!!! UGHHHHH!! I felt he was getting the relief I had wanted and I deserved!! I had been sick the lasdt few days so I missed my 9:30 meeting, but by 1 in the afternoon I had to get out of my house, I found a 2:00 and went and it felt better, I said I was obsessing, I was scared. I called my sponsor on the way home and she talked me through it. It is scary!!! Don't drink no matter what, sounds easy enough, but I really was losing it yesterday. It does get better, and I am better now, but I think I may put a lot of pressure on myself.

    Watch out for the cravings, they could even be hiding in a book!!!