Tuesday, November 23, 2010

3 Years Ago Today

3 years ago today I walked into my first meeting....and to say my life was forever changed is the understatement of the year. I went to quit drinking, and in return learned a entirely new and amazing way to live life. Being honest, putting others first, letting God be in charge, forgiving people. and myself...an amazing way to life, an amazing new life for me.

I must have looked like complete crap that day, because this morning when I picked up my chip everyone comment on how much better I looked. I came in grey, and sweaty, and wanting to die...My outsides matched my insides, sad and broken. I don't remember a word that was said that day. Only that they were laughing, and I was not. I couldn't fathom being able to laugh without drinking. I remember thinking -what in the hell are they laughing about, this is not funny-

I wanted what they had enough to come back the next day, and the next, and the next...until the days added up to 3 years.

Today I am grateful...so very grateful!

5 comments:

  1. Congratulations Emily!!!!!! Yay you :)
    I still can't laugh, but I'm early in (45 days back) I keep telling myself it will get better -

    Keep up the good work xx

    Kristin

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  2. HAPPY 3 YEARS AND WAY TO GO!!!!! I remember the first time I heard myself laughing in recovery, it was like a foreign noise coming from my mouth. But it feels awesome and especially when you can make someone else laugh, and I don't mean laughing at me for some dumbass drunken stunt or performance! Gradually the lines on my forehead are going away and getting laugh lines, which I am proud of!
    Take care and again you have come a long way, own it and be proud!!
    Laura

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  3. congrats emily!

    i have never posted before but have read your blog for quite some time.

    you are an inspiration!

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  4. Emily, I am so proud of your 3 years. I will have 3 years Dec. 14 and I know how rough it can be. I had a sitution this past week that 3 years ago would have sent me into a 2 week drunk but I prayed my way through it. I take some credit but give God the majority. I would say instead of drinking through the problem I prayed through the problem. Your blog is one of the first things I read in the mornings and then through the day I check it out. Thank you so much for sharing this with us alcoholics, it does help.

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  5. Congrats Em!!!! Hope I too can someday string along that many days.....back with the program with a little over 30 days now....just workin one day at a time....love to you all & Happy Thanksgiving to you all....I'm grateful for all of you!

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