Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Faith-Fear-Faith-Fear

Nobody ever promised that life would be easy, but knowing that it is all really out of my control, and being taken care of by a power so much bigger, and so much greater than I could ever imagine is amazing. God has this life of mine handled...if I let him...but sometimes it looks like this:

fear-faith-fear-faith-fear...it makes for a tiring day. Today I am going to try and stay in faith, to not flinch, and to let God do his job, while I do mine. He really doesn't need my help.

I hope everyone is having a WONDERFUL day!!

9 comments:

  1. Sober and not fighting it anymoreOctober 26, 2010 at 3:51 PM

    Someone once told me that although God gives us pecans, we still have to crack them to get anything out of it.

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  2. Hey all! Long time....have some bad news....I celebrated 10 mnths of sobriety on 10/16 and then drank on 10/18....no rhyme or reason as to why....I was "testing" myself to see if I could drink normally.....GUESS WHAT????? It didn't work. I really thought I could do it (in my mind)....but in reality - I couldn't and didn't. Soooooo,,, I'm back to day 9 of sobriety - but I feel very positive about this for 2 reasons: 1: I've been grappling with this "need to be able to socially drink" for several months now and it's been holding me back from moving forward with my 12-step program; and 2: I really, honestly think I neded to do this for me, personally, in order to prove to myself one last time that I can't do this and I need to move on. I know this is probably a major downer for several, but I felt the need to share because it might also help someone.....and that's what this program of recovery is all about...helping others in addition to yourself. I'm back and hope my "share" helps someone in the group.

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  3. Correction to my typo above....drank on 10/17....my new sobriety date is 10/18.....sorry - fingers were working faster than my brain....love to all!

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  4. Thank you Annette, it takes a lot to share. So happy to have you back!!

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  5. I am so proud of you for sharing! It took courage! I am also very glad to have you back. You were missed! Xoxo, em

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  6. Annette, Isn't is funny how we keep doing what we ALWAYS did, but keep expecting different results! I'm so proud of you for making it back. I get so very scared when friends go back out to try it again, I'm always afraid that they won't make it back. Back to the beginning. "I am powerless over alcohol and my life is unmanagable." Hugs.

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  7. Thx.... gettin back to basics....one day at a time..............that's all I can share now - but it's good to be back..............faith to all & hugs to all!!!

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  8. Thanks Annette - I am such a new one.. I had a feeling that you were struggling.. Prayers to you. And if you think of it please pray for me.

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  9. I'm going to pray for us all!!! Sometimes it nice to know others are thinking of you with lots of love!!

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