Wednesday, October 13, 2010
The Day my Blog took my Breath Away
Writing the post "Venting" was hard for me. But I knew I had to get it out there. You don't just sugar coat what's going on, when writing about what's going on is what you do. So I wrote, I put it out there, even though I didn't really want to. And before I could turn around there were 8 comments of love and support. It took my breath away. This blog has done that many times. But that day I really need it too, and it did. It is my honor to share my life with you. It is not always easy, but it is always an honor.Thank you.
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Thank you!! You help us all so much, just being honest is what we need. Life is different when you take away the alcohol, and sometimes it's harder because we can't numb the pain.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your loving spirit. It used to be so easy for me to be in a funk and just drink it away. Not thinking about the next day and that the pain would still be there. Not drinking to kill emotional pain is very difficult after doing it for lots of years. Now when I feel the pain I know I can never drink alcohol again to numb it, so I deal with it as best I can - like "normal people" do. And when I say normal people I feel alcoholics are not "normal" people in the sense that non-alcoholics are. That's why a person that has never dealt with the disease has no clue what us alcoholics go through. We are a different "breed" and situations affect us in deep ways where the normal person thinks nothing of it. I have been sober for almost 3 years and I still have my dry drunks, getting depressed, irritable and hard to get along with. I just want to go somewhere and scream the pain away since I can't drink it away. But I pray and sometimes it takes several days for me to sober up from my dry drunk but when I do I am so proud and happy with myself that I overcame whatever put me in that dreaded place. You're an inspiration to all of us Emily. Keep up the good fight because I feel as long as we live it will be somewhat of a fight to not consider that a drink (and as an alcoholic there is no such thing as a first drink or one drink) would make the pain go away, but having to realize it would only bring more severe pain. It will get better. You're going through some rough times now but you also have a lot of things to look forward to and be thankful for. I include you and our litte group in my morning prayers. That's important for me to do each day.
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