I spent all day in the house today. All by myself. I didn't go to a meeting and I didn't spend much time on the phone. Then poor Beau got home. As we were eating dinner I was totally like blah, blah, blahing. He was a like "Wow, Mom you have a lot to say tonight." Poor kid:) But he listened, and even seemed a bit interested. He is turning into such an amazing young man. And after last years shenanigans I couldn't be any more grateful.
Today was a down day for me. The goal in sobriery is not to get to up or to down, it's all about balance. So when I feel myself getting to far down it's scary. So tomorrow I am meeting with my sponser, who is a perfect mix between a strict Mom, and a loving caring Grandma. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life. And I would go on and on about her, but she'd kick my ass.
Hope everyone had a wonderful day!