Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Talk, talk, talk

I spent all day in the house today. All by myself. I didn't go to a meeting and I didn't spend much time on the phone. Then poor Beau got home. As we were eating dinner I was totally like blah, blah, blahing. He was a like "Wow, Mom you have a lot to say tonight." Poor kid:) But he listened, and even seemed a bit interested. He is turning into such an amazing young man. And after last years shenanigans I couldn't be any more grateful.

Today was a down day for me. The goal in sobriery is not to get to up or to down, it's all about balance. So when I feel myself getting to far down it's scary. So tomorrow I am meeting with my sponser, who is a perfect mix between a strict Mom, and a loving caring Grandma. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life. And I would go on and on about her, but she'd kick my ass.

Hope everyone had a wonderful day!


  1. Have a good night Emily, I hear you on having a down day, it's o.k.!!! Take care of yourself, seeing your sponsor will help, i always love my one on one time with mine!

  2. sober and not fighting it anymoreSeptember 23, 2010 at 4:05 PM

    When I would ask my sponsor "how are you doing today"? His answer was "nothing great happening today, then again there's nothing terrible happening today either. It's just another normal sober day to be thankful for. And thats about the best day I can ask for".