Saturday, September 4, 2010

The "going out" Meeting

K, so tonight I'm going to this meeting that everyone gets all dolled up to go to. It's sorta like a meat market I hear. Totally not my thing, or at least I think it's not my thing. I've never been, so I'll save judgement until after:)

I'm going because I am trying to be a "yes" girl. If someone asks me to do something and it's within reason I'm saying YES! Why in the heck not. Sobriety is all about learning and doing new things...so I'm game for pretty much anything these days!

I'll let you know how it goes!

8 comments:

  1. I am looking forward to how you feel about this meeting. Honestly, It sort of scares the crap out of me if it has a reputation like you've said.

    Don't know, but "meat market" and "meeting" don't quite mix for me.

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  2. sober and not fighting it anymoreSeptember 5, 2010 at 6:22 AM

    hummmmmmm, all I know is bandana Em and overall Em. And you have always looked just fine as such.Probably the REAL you. This dolled up Em will have to be captured in a pic and shared. Can't wait to see!
    Today you are you, that's truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you.---Dr. Seuss---
    And I guess that goes for no matter how one dresses. You'll still be the same Em we all know and love.

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  3. I love the Dr. Seuss quote!!

    All I know is that when I read this title I thought this was going to be about drinking again. I thought I read the term "going out" here as referring to returning to drinking? Or was that "going back out"? Anyway, it was a term I was unfamiliar with. So when I saw this title, I thought 'OH NO - Emily is returning to drinking"!!!!!!!! So glad it is "only" a meat market! Ha ha!

    When you say "meeting", is this an AA meat market thing or something else?

    Whatever it is - hope you have fun. Getting all dressed up every once in while is fun. I love going on cruises to dress up every night, something I rarely do at home. :)

    And yes, you must post pictures.

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  4. I agree with Gloria, I love the Dr. Seuss quote and also thought Emily starting drinking again from the title! :)

    I have a question for Emily, Annette, Doggielover and Mommaof3 (if she is still reading and not still offline): when you first stopped drinking, did you find yourselves to be irritable? If so, how long did that last?

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  5. O' my gosh, I'm sorry I made you think I went back out! Nope still sober! you are correct the overrall girl is the real me, but getting all dressed up is fun also. The meeting was great! Loved the speaker and after we all went for coffee. Glad I went! And it didn't seem meat marketish to me at all, but that stuff seem to go right over my head, or maybe I just ignore it...I don't know..,

    My computer is down so S,S is up to you guys today. I can comment, but I can't post. Xoxo, em

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  6. Anonymous, to answer your question about being irritable, YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I still am!! You know what I have found so far, I have a little over 4 months so it is very fresh and very much happening all the time. I can let certain things go, but sometimes something so meaningless will set me off. I can get very grumpy if I am in a place that has drinking and people are really drunk. I know I ALWAYS acted like an ass when i drank, but I know I need to move away from it. Maybe because I know I can't drink, who knows it just gets me mad. Work can get me freaked out. I deal with people all day and sometimes they take things out on me. LIFE makes me angry sometimes, I have been dealing with a lot of death and sickness around me and my family, that is hard and I get irritable. But let me ask you this, when you were drinking, or if you are drinking, are you irritable? Are you just in a funk? Does drinking make it better or worse? Drinking made me more depressed, irritated, miserable, grumpy you name it. When your sober, or trying to be life still happens around you, you just have to try to handle it a different way. You need to see why you are feeling that way, maybe it's coming up on your time of the month, you actually have to let yourself feel the feeling!! I have been up and down a lot lately, but I try to talk with my sponsor and I talk more to my husband about things that are on my mind or upsetting me, sometimes just doing that releasing the angst inside me. I hope that helps. YOUR NOT ALONE if you are feeling irritable, it's a feeling and it's o.k. Sometimes just let yourself feel it.

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  7. Thanks, Doggielover. When I drank, I became a happy drunk. I'm seeing a counselor, and she thinks I drank because I had so much stress in my life over the past few years that I drank to numb myself. Now I've only not been drinking for a few days, but find myself unbelievably irritated with my work (it has been really bad for a few years). Not with my family, though. Can't be coming up to that time of the month because that never bothered me before; plus, I'm at the age where I'm just about done with that.

    Do you have any tricks to deal with the irritability? I'm trying to eat well and exercise. Use the hot tub a lot and get plenty of sleep, but I have so many angry thoughts in my head. Fortunately, they haven't popped out of my mouth yet, though. But sometimes I feel like I'm going to explode...

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  8. Well, I can't say much, hopefully someone else can give you some more info. I know about "numbing" myself. Honestly, I think I read it on this site or in one of my books on alcoholics, I think it said something like you body has been damaged, some things are out of balance and it takes time to even out. Think about it, if you have been taking meds. for anything, drinking too much will have an effect on the meds working with your body. It will all even out, just keep doing it one day at a time.

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