Thanks, Emily. I think there's a lot of truth in that, but I still find myself either forgetting the past or focusing on it too much, which leads to my question: how long after going sober did you feel like you had your act together, for lack of a better expression? I guess I mean, when did you feel human again or normal?I'd like Doggielover, Annette, Mommaof3 and Randy (where are you?!?) to weigh in, too.
I felt like a million bucks the 1st 6 months of my sobriety....I was happy all the time, hopeful, full of energy. The last 3 months have been a bit different - anxious, frustrated, wanting to crawl outta my skin at times, confused, not at all "normal". But I'm starting to feel myself coming out of it...when I remind myself to keep it simple and take it a day at a time, I tend to "feel normal". It's when I start reminiscing in the past too much and/or looking ahead to the future too much that I get myself into a funk - so I try not to do that. And every day is different....yesterday was an incredibly dark, sucky day for me....but today has started off bright and happy and I feel good. The past 9 months have been the most "human" I've felt in a really long time to be honest though...to be human is to face, head-on, life's daily issues - good & bad - without drinking at it or about it...that's what I've done and it's felt like the most "human" thing I've done/gone thru in my life.