Wednesday, August 25, 2010

A New Day

For a few months now I've been waking up in anxiety. Morning after morning waking to my brain attacking me, it sucked. This morning I woke to peace, thank God. The trick is NO MATTER WHAT you don't drink. Trust that whatever hell your going through will pass if you stay sober and try to do next right thing. I know that sounds hard. As sometimes there is so much on our plate that we are certain it will crack. It won't, God never gives us more than we can handle (he sometimes trusts us more than we trust ourselves:) Trusting that you can get through it sober becomes easier with time, I promise,
I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL morning!

4 comments:

  1. Thanks, Emily. I appreciate your advice, especially since I know I'm going to have a stressful day today.

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  2. Emily, you are so right that it does get better if you stay sober. I am so thankful you awoke to peace this morning. I can relate to waking up with anxiety each and every morning for such a long time. I used to want happiness, now I want sobriety and contentment. For close to 3 years I have had sobriety but not always contentment. Humanly, that's not going to happen. I am just so thankful my God listens to my prayers and I have found in his time I feel his answers - yes or no. I hope you realize how many of us recovering alcoholics come here for your and others' words of advice and some form of comfort. You have been in my prayers and do hope God answers with yes to a job you like real soon. All the best to you and your boys.

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  3. I have been in and out of AA for the past 8 years. I feel like I finally "make it" (typically after about 18 mos sobriety) and then something unexplainable happens. I'll be driving down the road and see a liquor sign and tell myself I am not going to stop. I tell myself I am not going to go into the building as I'm pulling in the parking lot. I tell myself I'm just going to look and not buy anything as I'm walking thru the store. I tell myself I can just buy it and pour it out as I'm paying for it. You get the idea. I've been sober for 5 weeks now (after a 6 month binge following one more of those 18 mos stints of sobriety). I was coming home from a neighboring town and saw a liquor sign. Only today I didn't stop. God did I want to. I've already alienated my two adult children and lost 2 jobs. You'd think I reached bottom. But that insidious devil tells me that maybe my bottom is just a little "lower yet". So anyway, I didn't stop, and I came home, and somehow I came across this website. And I can relate to almost every post. If you ever figure out how God plays into all this, please let me know, because I don't know what else it is. So...thank you! I bookmarked your blog, so I'll be back. And good luck to you...you are not alone.

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  4. Good to see you here Anonymous. I really hope you are successful this time. We all understand. We've all been there before. Keep visiting. Keep sharing.

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