Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Here some links to a few support groups...
I think we can all guess which one I use, but whatever one works for you is what ever one works for you. Pray about it, try to trust God, and take some action. Please let me know if there are anyothers out there, and I will add the link.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Me to! Screw it, sobriety is for the birds! I was a way better Mom when I was driving my kids around town drunk, lying about my drinking and being a selfish self centered ass. Let's do it. I'll pick you up at 5. Xo, Em
It's sorta funny now, but not really. I never want to go back to there. It was horrible. My life is far from perfect today, but I am a good person and a good Mom...which I think might actually be all that really matters. Getting sober was really hard. I can joke about it now, but there's really nothing funny about the thought of ever having to do it again.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
How is your Sunday going?
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
their own thing. They are growing up so fast. I'm feel blessed to
even understand and practice the term staying in the moment. Before I
got sober i had NO clue what that meant, I was all over the place. As
for right now I'm staying in the moment all alone though...kinda boring!
Maybe i'll hit a meeting or call another alcoholic to help me get over
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
So off I go to tell another alcoholic all the sorted details about my past that I have yet to reveal. Fun?!...no...Worth it?!...yes!!
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL day!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
way, click here to check out their radness) Was I nervous to work in a bar? Yes. And I should have been. Even though I have a bit of sober time bars scare me. I've been to them a decent amount of times in soberity, but I've always been able to leave the second I felt I needed to. Last night was a different ball game, I had to stay. I had a few cravings ( which scared the shit out of me), but besides that it was a-ok. Right now if someone asks me to do something that gets me closer to being able to pay my bills this month, I'm in!
Let's talk about cravings. What do you do when they rear their ugly head?
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
So imagine my amazement and surprise when I ran across a travel company that combines fabulous, tropical vacations with sobriety...meeting included!? -sweet right!- I knew the second I saw their website that I wanted them as a part of our team!
So without further ado I proudly present....
Clean GetAway Travel
Friday, August 20, 2010
As you all know I am desperately looking for employment. This past week I heard twice "Have you tried a temp agency?" So off I went yesterday to the local temp agency. Come to find out my skill set is low as shit, and I can type really quickly what is in my head, but not so quickly what is on paper. It was sorta painful. The cute lady used the word creative...We are going to have to get really creative here is actually what she said...hahaha...yup, that's the story of my life.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I'm going through this little "life's not fair" stage. Now I know for damn sure that it actually isn't, but normally I just take my luck as it comes and remember to be grateful for what I do have. I'm having a hard time with that right now. I feel that my ass is falling off, and I don't know about yours, but my God has a funny way of waiting until the last minute to save it.
Please keep praying that I get the job, sign on new advertisers, get some donations, or win the lottery. Thank you. I love you, Em
Monday, August 16, 2010
I hate talking about things on here before they happen. But I'm going
to today because I need to get it off my chest. I may have a possible
job, a good one, that pays and everything:) That totally reminds me of
something Gavin said the other day... "Mom I know it's important to
help people, but could you at least charge some of them " Funny to get
business advice from your 10 year old. Any way about the possible job
please pray that I get it, because if I don't, I'm kinda s.o.l..I'm
trying to stay in faith, which thank God I'm pretty good at. But still
it's scary. I was thinking back today about the times in my life that
I could have given a shit less about paying my bills. Today I not only
care that they get paid, I care that they get paid on time. WOW, I
think I'm turning into a grown-up! A job God...please!
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Sunday, August 15, 2010
We've said many mean words. Our words most often hurt the people we love. We can never really take back those words. But we're learning now to speak with care. We know that words have a lot of power.
What do we say when we're angry? When we want something? When we're trying to be kind. Now think about this: people will remember our words. If we're honest and careful in our speech, people will respect us. But if we say things to fore our will , we may be sorry later.
Prayer for the day:
Higher Power, speak through me today.
Action of the day:
Today , I'll ask one question of the person I love the most: "How have my words hurt you in the past?" Then I'll talk to my sponsor about this.
Keep it Simple [Hazelden Meditations]
This is a great one for me. I don't know about you but I had a mean and sharp tongue when I was drinking. I still can today, but I try really hard not to hurt people with my words. It is a work in progress, but I'm happy to be sober and working on it today:)
Saturday, August 14, 2010
It is the will of God that we shall all live happy, healthy lives, full of joyous experience; that we should develope freely and steadily.To this end we require such things as food, clothing, shelter, means of travel, books, and so on; above all we require freedom. In this prayer all these things are included under the heading of bread; that is to say; not merely food in general, but all things required for a healthy, free, and harmonious life. But in order to obtain these things we have to claim them, and recognize that God alone as the source and fountainhead of all our good. Lack of all kind is always traceable to the fact we have been seeking our supply from secondary source, instead of God himself, the author and giver of life.
This is from the meditation book "Through the year with Emmet Fox" This is totally what I needed to read today, and felt compled to share it!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
getting my to-do/but don't want to-do list done, which always feels
good. I may have found a job, which I am sooo grateful for that I
could burst! And I'm doing 4 loads of laundry all at one time, which
is rad! I know what's for dinner and what meeting I'm going to. So
all in all today's a pretty darn good day!
How's your day going?
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
I'm looking at some things right now that I'm not loving about myself. I know the steps I am supposed to be taking to correct it, but I'm slacking on it. I'm scared I think. But what has been proven to me time and time again is my recovery work is always, always easier than I thought it would be once I have the courage to do it. So I guess this is my prayer for the day...
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Listen to the kind voice inside. Listen to the voice that tells you you're good enough. Listen to the voice that tells you it's okay to make mistakes-you'll learn from them. Listen to the voice that tells you to go to a meeting even though it's cold outside and you're tired. Listen, and let this voice become more and more clear. Listen and welcome it into your heart. Talk with this voice. Ask it questions and seek it out when you need a friend. This voice is your Higher Power. Listen as your Higher Power speaks. Listen as your Higher Power tells you what a great person you are.
Prayer for the day
I pray to the gentle and loving voice that lives in me. Higher Power you've always been kind to me. You've always loved me. Help me to remember You're always there -inside me.
Action for the Day
I will take time from my busy day to listen and talk with the loving voice that lives inside me.
I am VERY grateful that tonight is my Women's meeting. I need it, and that's no joke!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Here's my plan...
I am going to eat something really healthy, call someone to tell them how I'm feeling, take a bath, pray & meditate, and then to bed.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I guess it's difficult for me to share what I'm going through when I'm going through it. I am such an alcoholic/addict, my new issue...food. Why can't I do ANYTHING in moderation? Soooo annoying. I am totally eating at my emotions, I get that. Stopping myself from doing it, I'm not so great with. I am a total all or nothing girl and it's not like I can stop eating all together. So I am going to give it to God and remember getting all freaked out about it brings me one step closer to a drink. Yes you guys even at almost 3 years sober you still have to worry about that, at least if your a real alcoholic you do. If I start thinking I have control over everything or that I'm running the show I'm screwed... so I don't, I let God be in charge and just try to do the next right thing, some days I suck at it, but as long as I don't take a drink it's a good day.
If your at that point where you want to stop drinking but are scared and don't even know where to start...pray...ask for help...and know you are not alone...
Monday, August 2, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
What happens when the pink cloud disappears? It's sometimes painful and scary and you hope you have enough God, program and tools to stay sober. I did, thank God.
Please share your experience with your pink cloud...