Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sobriety Sunday

Oh heck, I don't know....

I have been thinking about {name withheld} lately...it sucks...so yesterday I cut the last tie we had...It was way easier that I thought it would be, maybe that's what was holding me up from healing. Who knows!? But I do know this, the more I'm thinking about him, the less I'm thinking about God. So I guess these days my goal is to keep my focus on God and my recovery.

By the way if your thinking about your past, or drinking or a lost love or whatever the answer is always God...I know that's hard for some, it's even hard for me sometimes. But I think God is right there waiting for us to come to him with our problems. Give it a try, it's not like we have anything to lose.

2 comments:

  1. I soooo needed this post today Em...think you may know that. Sorry our chat ended last nite - damn tech glitches! Baseball is over and I am now gonna throw myself 100% into my program...I need to, have needed to, for about 4 months now. I'm over 7 months sober and just now getting to work on Step 4. I think it's gonna be hard, hurtful, .....basically awful to sit down and make a list of those that I have harmed/hurt in the past because of my drinking...but I know that it is time to face the music...hopefully once I have it all down & go to do Step 5 I'll feel the relief that so many tell me I'll feel...right now I'm in a little bit of fear knowing that I'm gonna start working on it in a couple of hours...it's time to get really honest with myself & that scares me. I'm meeting with my sponsor in 2 hrs & 20 minutes (to be exact)...shows how much fear I have about this. But in order to completely recover & set myself free, I have to face this....so, here goes - wish me luck!!! Hope everyone's having a super sober Sunday!!

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  2. You are so right, god is waiting for us to turn it over. It's just hard sometimes when your hurting to believe. I'm learning to believe more!! Have a great day everyone!

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