I'm going to share a journal entry with you from my 1st year that is really hard for me to even read, but I think it's important to share.
I find my mind calling me a dumb bitch all the time, it's ridiculous and I know it, but it still happens. I pray to God that it stops, it is such a horrible thing to call myself. I've always felt kind of dumb, but in no way shape or form do I consider myself a dumb bitch:)
I wanted to share this because sometimes the way we talk to ourselves, especially in early sobriety is brutal. It does get better, I promise. By using positive affirmations and the tools I have learned from the program I stay sober in I have learned to talk to myself lovingly and with kindness. It is still something I have to work on everyday, but I am so grateful that I have the tools to even know how to do that. Today I know what to do if my shitty committee tries to take over. I also know that I deserve to be talked to lovely by people, especially by myself.