I didn't go to a meeting today. Why? Cause I'm in a funk and when I'm in funk my disease works over time to get me back. Flipping alcoholism, it's always there. Sometimes it's really quiet, and I almost forget I have it. But when I'm weak or scared or tired or lonely, it screams at me or even worse whispers...you don't need a meeting, don't call anyone, you don't really need to get out of bed today...........scary.