Just saw my therapist & am feeling much, much better and ready to get back to my program & ALWAYS do the next right thing! God is Good, Merciful & Forgiving...and I will do His will ONLY from now on! Too detailed to share....no I didn't drink...but was getting off track pretty badly....but I'm back on track now. It's amazing how easily & quickly it can happen! No one ever said the 1st year was gonna be a walk in the park!
Just went through one of those derailments lately myself... No alcohol, but I felt as though I did, wierd. Just another fine example of how this disease can progress behind your back, sneak up & bite you in the ass when you least expect it. I guess year 7 is no walk in the park either. My first year was solo, without any type of program help. My wife says she would have almost preferred I kept drinking. I guess that's the person I turn into when I get "off track." I'm sooooooo glad you're back in the groove Annette. It's wierd out there in limbo-land...
Annette, I totally hear you today. I have been riding on a happy wave lately, not to many highs or lows, just even. Today I woke up and I was really happy, did some errands and started to clean my house. As I was cleaning I was getting so pissed. Why do I always scrub and clean up after my husband, I would like my house to stay clean when I clean, why am I even bothering cleaning, he never helps, I was getting crazy in my head. Then I had an even crazier thought, I used to be happy when I cleaned when I drank a bottle of Vodka!!!!!UGHHHHHHHHHH, That 1st thought can be so damaging, thank God I didn't, I stopped and sat down and tried to ground myself, thankfully the thought went away. Those thoughts can sneak up on you and bite you in the butt!!!Have a good day everyone!!