Saturday, July 17, 2010

Fear

I was sitting here thinking what could I write about besides what I'm actually feeling...then I thought to myself WOW this is your blog your supposed to talk about how your actually feeling...FEAR that is how I'm feeling. And it's scary and uncomfortable. I have a friend who has a sign above her bed that says -freak out it will make everything better- so funny! Freaking out doesn't make anything better at all, I don't know about you but it just pushes me more and more into fear and panic. So today I am trying to stay calm, stay in the moment, take some action and trust that God will take care of the rest.

14 comments:

  1. What are you afraid of?

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  2. Remember Em...."our fear of economic instability will slip away.....are these extravagant promises???...We think not". Keep believing in this!

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  3. That is exactly what I was going to ask!

    Are you afraid you will drink? Afraid of not being able to pay the money to keep driving? Afraid of writing the article? There certainly are things to fear (and I have only known you a very short while so I really don't know that much). But, you have such faith and such a support system that I see you conquering any fear quite easily! Nothing wrong with being afraid, only with the choices we make we confronted with fear. Sadly, I have made poor choices in the past and taken the "drink and hide" approach. I need to stay strong to avoid that decision in the future.

    Hope you conquer your fears in a positive way Emily!

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  4. Hi Emily, I don't know what your fear is but, when I get in that place, I cry it out. I just let myself cry and feel the fear and then God reminds me it's all going to be ok. Cause He's in control, not me. (Thank you for that God!) I know you've heard that most of what we worry about never happens. It helps me to take it to the worst possible situation. It's a thing called "so?". You bring up your fear and then ask, so? And the answers come, it's amazing and even a little fun, if you like a challenge. You're stronger than you think Em.
    You'll be fine and the boys will be too! It gets better, I promise! Love to you.

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  5. Fear is a good topic, we face fear everyday. Your fear will be resolved, it's just hard to think of the what if's. Cut yourself some slack, pray on it, it will get better. Then on to our next fear, LOL, isn't that how life works?

    Have a great day everyone!!

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  6. 7 months yesterday - woohoo!!! And a Happy Birthday to mommaof3 on 17 months yesterday as well!!! Hope your fear has subsided Em - I'm prayin for ya girl!!

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  7. Annette & mommaof3, YEAH!!!

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  8. How does it go? "Fear is Faith that hasn't said it's prayers."

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  9. Good morning! Fear, hmmmmm...incredible timing, Em! My chest has been so heavy from fear lately. I put the "so" and "what's the worse that can happen" to use quite a bit yesterday and already this morning. It does help when you realize you have God by your side. And believe me, I have needed it. Two weeks, no alcohol and feeling so much better about that, anyway.

    So, today I will spend the day saying my prayers and offering my fear up.

    God Bless, everyone!

    IowaJules

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  10. Iowajules!!! Great job!! It's so nice to have the relief of not drinking and "fearing" the trouble you are hoping you didn't cause by drinking. Keep it up!! You cam do it!!


    Keep

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  11. I saw this the other day...."If you feed your faith, your fear will starve." How true that is! But fear is very powerful, but it's only as powerful as we will allow it to be. I struggle with fear to an extent and it goes in spurts and it just depends on what's going on in my life. I do have an example...it's not "huge" by any means, but to me, it seems to be. I am taking a class through my church called VP3. It's once a week and is 3 hours long and it goes from Sept-May. I didn't take it last year, because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do the work, because there is a lot of homework involved...lots of reading and journaling. I have really wanted to take it, but due to the memory/cognitive disability I have due to the shock therapy I went through in 2008, it's hard for me to focus, concentrate, remember, retain information, reason, ect...so I expressed my concerns with my former spiritual mentor who I am very close to and she is head of this class. I shared that I was afraid. She then came back and told me that "Obediance trumps everything!" This class is about going deeper in our faith. It's not a pass/fail class and either way, I'm going to walk away with something. There may be some things I can't do, but overall, it's going to be a great experience and so I'm trying to let go of that fear.
    Now this isn't a fear such as financial fear, or fear of losing my sobriety, but it is a fear of "failing." Anyway, just thought I'd share. But remember "IF YOU FEED YOUR FAITH, YOUR FEAR WILL STARVE."

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  12. Maybe your fear is a part of your personality that for some reason was formed early in your life. I believe my fear is, it is almost a constant companion. Even when things are seemingly great, my fear is that the rug is about to be pulled from under me. Guess what? It always happens. The damn RUG!
    Life always comes along and kicks your ass. Accept it, ignore it, move on and appreciate the brief moments of calm and happiness.

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  13. As I read these posts, and think about fear, I have found that my greatest fear is losing someone I love, someone very close to me. That has always been my BIGGEST fear...and as 'anonymous' @ 4:31 mentioned, I'm most certain it was formed early in life due to losing my Dad in a tragic accident at the age of 7. And fear has always reared it's ugly head at times about the possibilty, well, the reality of losing my Mom someday. I just know I was afraid that something would happen to her as I was growing up...and it didn't help when a babysitter thought it would be funny when she got a "call", handed me the phone and said that someone wanted to talk to me, that something bad has happened to my mother. How fricking cruel is that when it had only been a short time since the death of my dad. Needless to say, that was her last time babysitting for us. That was quite traumatic. Fear gripped me as a child when I heard that....and then to hear her laugh and say..."Just kidding!" Thginking back on that to this day, 26-27 years later, I could thump her for saying that. You just don't joke about those things with a child who's Dad was recently killed in an accident... or with anyone for that matter. Sorry. Just a little bit of a flashback. Fear gripped me as I took the phone from her.

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  14. What your babysitter did to you as a child was unbelievably cruel and thoughtless. The word "evil" comes to mind, as well. Maybe she eventually grew up and realized it, maybe not.

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