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Well, here I am posting my very first comment. I am hoping I will become a regular.I am on day one. A year ago I was close to having three years sober!! I did it 100% on my own, cold turkey, and was quite proud of that. I am a secret drinker so I had to be a secret recoverer. When no one knows you drink, it is much harder to stop! In the last year, I have slowly, slowly started to get back to drinking - at first once a month, then twice a month, then once a week, etcI am done - again. I will need support to do this. I am hoping to find it here. Thanks to all for being here.
Today is my 18 month anniversary. Each milestone I reward myself with something - usually a Starbuck's Caramel Macchiato on the way to a meeting. Pretty bad idea, since I own and operate a coffee shop! But, it was my treat to myself for that day of sobriety. Today, I'm feeling a bit under the weather, so I came home from work early (6ish) and watched this week's reruns of Dr. Phil and chillaxed on the couch. I saw the episode where you spoke with one of us and decided to check out your link --- wonderful stuff here! Thanks for taking the time to share your story with me (and 7 million of my closest Dr. Phil friends)! It's made a difference in my day today!
Gloria - I know your story as it seems so like my own. Problem drinking on my own and recovery as such - It is hard when you have a hidden problem that you know but others have not caught on to - my life. However, I have learned that habits die hard and they creep up because they are hidden. So letting another know of the vice is freedom. It takes some of the power away. I know your struggle. Peace
Your post made me think of a favorite Cher quote: “I can trust my friends These people force me to examine myself, encourage me to grow.”Gloria, I'm glad you found your way to day one. You don't have to do this alone.Congrats on 18 months Annie!
Gloria --Personally, I'm amazed and impressed with what you accomplished on your own. How did you do it? Do you have any tips to share?Don't beat yourself up about starting over...
Gloria, You CAN DO IT!! Good Luck!!!
Wow! Thanks for so many comments. Coming here is going public for me! I am hoping by coming here, I will have others to help me on this journey.For anonymous who asked how I did it - I just had to. I got to a point where I was not happy with myself. I had a scary incident and said "that's it". My daughter was in 8th grade and I was afraid she would start catching on. I did not want her to know her mom drank. She is now 17 and is experimenting herself and I believe that is part of what sent me back to day one - worrying and stressing over her and decisions she will make. Anyway, I did it by sheer will and I did visit a website and checked in online with others. That site changed and I no longer visit it. I am now hoping to find help here from others just like me. If I can string another almost 3 years together, I will be very happy!!
Thanks, Gloria (I am the anonymous person who asked how you did it). I am strong-willed, but not quite strong enough, I guess. Maybe it's because I haven't had any scary incidents? I read about people peeing themselves and vomiting in their sleep and getting DUIs and driving drunk with their kids and getting ultimatums from their spouses, etc., and none of that is anything I've experienced. I drink in the late afternoon/early evening, more than I think I should, but nothing like I've read some folks here have done. I don't get hungover, I don't pass out, but sometimes I have black outs, and I know I need to clean up my act before I reach a scary point...I admire what you were able to do. I'll keep reading here and trying...
Anonymous, if you think you have a alcohol problem, it doesn't matter that you haven't gotten a DUI, or those other things. I didn't do most of those things either. I did have problems with my husband, though and blackouts.If you have finding that you can't deal or live without alcohol, thinking of how and when your going to get it, isolating yourself so nobody knows, you may have a problem, you can be thankful that you can do something now before something really awful happens.Good Luck!!
Gloria - Keep posting and come back to read. You are on my journey - my thoughts are so similar to your last post. Kids ... growing up and catching on.. I know this is a later post but keep writing - I think I have a similar path that you have lived and are living - The vice is always ready .. One Day at a time.