Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Sometimes it is hard for me not to talk openly about the solutionI use on here. Today I am in enough pain to start on what I find to be the hardest part of the program I stay sober in. It is the process (or step:) where you prepare to right your wrongs. Yes, after 2 1/2 years there is still stuff I have not cleaned up. I have shame tied to that, which I think has been stopping me from doing this life changing process. It's silly really, I know amazing things will happen after I do it. I know this because I have done it, and they have. I wonder if one day I will just do what I know I'm supposed to, instead of waiting for pain to push me into it. I really am a pain in the ass. But I know God loves me anyway, so I'm all good. Off to do some work.