Thursday, June 24, 2010

Off Line

It has come my attention that they have re aired the Dr. Phil show I was on. It is a bit ironic to me that this is occurring at the exact time I am going to be off line for the first time since emilyism started.

I am going on my annual sober camping trip for the weekend. I am sooo excited, but at the same time it is hard to know that the blog will be getting new friends and I may be getting a lot of emails that I can't check... this truly is a test of Letting go Letting God for me. Please know your important to me, and your important to this blog. Just because I don't get back to you doesn't mean I don't wish I could.

While I am gone Annette will be running the show! I am so blessed to have her in my life! Emilyism.com was build to be a safe place for people to come and get and give love and support. Please be kind to each other.

XOXO, Em

40 comments:

  1. I'm just watching the Dr. Phil episode you mention. I have not been where you have, "There but for the grace of God...", but I just wanted to give you an online "Atta girl!" And what a delight to see that you are off on a healing retreat! Enjoy, and thanks for bringing your message to other alcoholics.

    ~susan

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  2. I too am watching Dr. Phil today. I am not an alcoholic but I have alcoholics in my family God Bless You for sharing your story-and message with others.

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  3. I'm watching Dr. Phil and CONGRATS Emily on being sober!! Thank you for sharing your testimony and helping others.

    God Bless you!!

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  4. I just finished watching this for the second time. The first time in February, I was celebrating 60 days of sobriety. Today I have 2 days. How ironic that this show was on today. Sobriety is a precious gift - and you are right, Emily, it is not easy. I'm in a great recovery program, but have not been using the tools. Starting over...one day at a time. What a blessing to be alive and have a second chance!

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  5. I just ramdomly flipped through the channel and Dr. Phil caught my attention. I had to get more insight so I went to the website. I have realized that I am alcoholic for so long I have denied it I have tried to hide it. I have a wonderful husband who has brought me out of my worst time and three beautiful children. I have tried to quick several times but I always go back. I have a good life and very lucky but it seems to end in drinking. I was a social drinker as anyone is then it has lead into 24 case or 12 a day for the last 5 years this is gone on. I have tried to hide it so long I can't anymore my husband has found out and is giving me is it my family or the alcohol. I do not want to lose my family and maybe this is God's way of getting me close to being sober. God Bless and Thank you for the inspiration.

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  6. Em -
    Enjoy your camping trip - what a cool idea. And you looked just as pretty on Dr. Phil today as you did last time (hee hee)! Have a blast! Are your boys going too, or is it adults only?

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  7. Oh, almost forgot - big news! I celebrated 10 months yesterday! Yippee! I can remember last August being certain I'd never get 10 days, ever. Go God! And sobriety just keeps getting better...

    D.

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  8. As I was watching the Dr. Phil show today, I noticed it was a repeat (as you mentioned above) and this is my second time watching this episode. The first time watching it I thought to myself, I would never let myself get that bad…and well what do you know I sit here today watching with a totally different view, of not just the show but my life as well. I am a wife and a mother of three beautiful girls and every time that I find myself stressed I end up reaching for that ice cold can!! In the inside I am telling myself this is not right, but I continue to do it. I have found that within the last couple of months I have started drinking around the times of 11:00 to 1:00 pm. I know this is not far to my children, but on the other hand I feel this is the best opinion the deal with the stress. As I mentioned before I am a wife, and should be able to confide my feelings along with problems to my husband but the thing is that my husband has become a very judgmental person. He is quick to judge before looking at what he has done in the past. Every time I try to explain to him my problem I am brushed away, leaving me with no one to confide in. So I guess I am looking towards you as in what should I do to get my life back??

    Shannon

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  9. i just saw the Dr. Phil show and truly am impressed with your blog...i have spent some time reading it and i admire your courage and most of all your faith in God. With HIM all things are possible. You are living proof of that..i hope that lady on the show gets help...this maybe a re-run so maybe she is well on her way! have a peaceful time away!

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  10. Hello Em,

    It was my great pleasure to learn of your blog on the re-air today. I had not seen the first air in Feb. Congrats on your sobriety, and for using your reclaimed spirit to be of service to others... what a blessing!

    If I don't drink and I don't die, I'll have 8 years on Aug 12, all praise and thanks to God. I was touched by your comment on the show - to Mary - about how it is a struggle every day. I could so relate to that, in my own experience with sobriety... but would now rush to testify, again in my own experience, that the "struggle" does indeed cease and desist, and is replaced the with the power to love and be loved... to live every day to good effect.

    God Bless,
    Duane

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  11. Everyone is saying how hard it is to stay sober. As long as I'm working with my sponsor, praying on a daily basis, going to my 12 step meeting and working with others I rarely think about taking a drink or drug. I just celebrated 3 yrs of sobriety. It's easy if you work the steps.

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  12. I also caught the Dr. Phil show today. I am there, and I need help. Where do I go and what do I do? I'm a lost soul right now.

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  13. The amazing thing about being sober is having the ability to participate in my life. I am constantly amazed that there are so many resources for men to deal with their Alcoholism, but dismayed at the limited amount of resources available to women. We are all creatures of God and deserve the same opportunities. I am excited to find a resource for women to find encouragement and positive reinforcement. I will share this web site with the recovering women in my community, and will look forward to them checking in daily!

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  14. This is an awesome site...You are wonderful for setting it up and working the program of AA. I too am in AA and God willing will have eight years in September. Have a great weekend and if you need help or just a chat please find me...:o)) Lisa Nethaway

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  15. wow! Such a powerful show! I am grateful that I have found your site, Emily. I am sober 3 years and 1 month and very active in AA. I bring meetings to a women's prison once a week, open for a women's meeting once a week and work the AA hotlinne once a week. I love being in service! It is vital tmy sobriety! God Bless, Tracey

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  16. Hi Emily,
    As everyone writes, I too am watching the Dr. Phil show and like you am working a very hard program, just chaired a meeting today! My name is Mary and I am an alcoholic/addict.
    July 11th will be my two year sobriety date and I am thankful that I am here with God to walk through this thing called life. I grew up with two parents as alcoholics, my father is dying of it as I write this and my mother is 10 months sober. Not only did I grow up to be one but I also married one (what we call the double whammy). I left my beautiful home, material belongings and my husband of 14 years in November to live a sober life with my children and I have NEVER been happier. This is after drinking and drugging for 23 years! (Thank goodness I found my bottom before I lost all of this including my job and children, I left on my own accord)
    There is a gentleman that says at meetings, "My life is second to none and I will not take it any other way", I agree. Sobriety is not easy as it is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. But I am walking with people who are also sober, people who give me blueprints to live and solutions to my problems and honestly? this is a blessing.
    I have many girlfriends who are mothers and are drinking often, who call me for help but never follow through. I can't do anything for them until they admit to being powerless over alcohol.
    I am so happy that I gave myself and my children this gift, the gift of a sober mother. I commend you on a fabulous job! Keep working on it...

    God grant me the serenity to accept the thing I can not change the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference...

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  17. I, too, just watched the Dr. Phil show, and this was the first time I saw this episode. I just want to thank you for having this web-site for alcoholics to turn to for understanding and support. I am a recovering alcoholic myself and have just over 9 years of sobriety. I lost my Dad when I was 7 years old and fully believe I turned to alcohol (and eventually drug use) to numb the pain. It was a sudden loss due to an accident and there was no saying goodbye. I have also suffered from depression as long as I can remember. Lots of unresolved pain. Alcoholism runs on both sides of my family as well. I felt like I was doomed. But here I am 9 years later and living life on life's terms by the Grace of God. I, literally, cried out to God for help and it was shortly there after I signed myself into rehab. God (along with my daddy) were watching over me. Sobriety can be maintained with love and support, AA, and lots of hard work. It isn't easy, and we are subject to relapse if we don't do our work and change our ways. It is a disease. I heard this saying in rehab, "We are not bad people trying to be good, we are sick people trying to get better." I also admire your faith in God. I have always believed in God, but I never had a relationship with my Lord and Savior and He is the reason I am where I am today. Life has been challenging, to say the least, but because I have faith, the Lord gets me through each and every day. He never promised that life would be without pain and sorrow, He did promise that He would walk beside us every step of the way. It is only by His mercy and grace. (G.R.A.C.E.--- God's Riches At Christ's Expense) Thank you again, Emily. Enjoy your camping trip. Being in God's creation is the most amazing feeling. It's very serene and that's when I feel closest to Him. God Bless you.

    I find rest in God; only He gives me hope. He is my Rock and my Salvation. He is my Defender; I will not be defeated. -Psalm 62:5-6

    ~Amanda

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  18. I was always told I was going to hear my story someday and WOW! I turned on Dr. Phil and I was watching myself 25 months ago! Congrats to you on your two years...having just celebrated my two years!! I never in a million years imagined my life without slamming up to a case of beer a day! Now I cannot imagine it while drinking. My story gets a lil more complicated as I was hours away from dying.....and someone upstairs was watching and I had a liver transplant. I a also a single mother of one child with his own disabilities. It was not my time. God bless and have fun
    Livedtotell

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  19. Just about to lose cell service, but I wanted to pop in and say thank you for all your kinds words. May we be a wonderful inspiration to each other. Be back Sunday! Xo,Em

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  20. Emily, have a great trip!! Rest and have fun with your friends.

    Everyone else, I am so happy to see new people, this is the best kept secret on the internet, although I tell everyone at AA about it!!

    Welcome to all the sober people and the people who want to get there. I am going to celebrate 2 months on the 26th and I could not have done it without everyone on this site. It is so nice to have the support of people that are feeling and going through the same things. People share their experiences and hope and that is the best medicine you could ask for. I got the courage to go to AA from all my friends and I am living a wonderful life. We have ups and downs, but I am sober and that is what makes it ok. Can't wait to get to know you all, you can do it, there is HOPE!!!

    Annette, your gonna have your hands full, LOL!! I'll say a pray, call if you need anything!!

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  21. Great to see so many comments & welcome to everyone. I am Annette, wife, mother of 2 boys/2 dogs and I have just over 6 months of sobriety. I too began as a pretty average social drinker...my drinking picked up a few years after my youngest son was born and then I had 2 and a traveling husband. My "mommy drinks" were my friends - they kept me company after the boys went to bed, made me drunk dial my friends, drunk facebook friends, drunk text, let loose & get "outta myself". Weekends, turned to 1-2 days per week, turned to every nite, turned to around 3 p.m. every day, turned to everyday/anytime of the day. Hubby didn't like it - told me so, I fought him & my alcoholism for years and finally quit fighting, found myself completely emotionally, physically & spiritually broken on 12/16/09. I reached out to AA, and it and my God have given me a 2nd chance at a fabulous life. I fortunately didn't have to get a DUI, have legal problems, lose my job, friends or family - by the Grace of God - but.....I lost myself, somewhere in all that drinking and my "alleged best friend vodka" I completely lost myself. That's what it took for me to finally admit that I was powerless over alcohol-that my life had become unmanageable. I made this admission to myself on 12/16/09 (my sobriety date, along with Mommaof 3 - hey girl) and went to my 1st mtg on 12/18/09, got a sponsor at my 2nd mtg 12/19/09 and have been working my program as my sponsor and my homegroup guide me, along with God, and I have the life today that I never thought possible...I used to think "How on Earth am I never gonna be able to drink again!"....now I think, "How on Earth could I ever drink again?" I see that as my old thought was a statement, a fact, something that couldn't be changed. My new thought is a question to myself...How could I ever drink again & give up the peace, serenity & blessings I have in my life today? and for what....that alleged bff vodka - I CHOOSE SOBRIETY! Cont'd.

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  22. Annette's post cont'd....For those above that have commented as to finding help, I first want to make a blanket personal statement - What I shared above is what I used to be like, what happened & a bit about what I'm like now - I'm still growing. I personally chose AA as my recovery avenue. AA is one of the programs of recovery out there. AA is a program based on attraction rather than promotion, therefore, just want to make clear that I am not in any way "promoting" AA...I am merely sharing my experience in my recovery program with the alcoholics that still suffer & struggle. There is an AA hotline in the front of all phonebooks and they can help you find a meeting near you. I did just that on 12/16/09...took 2 days to work up the courage to go, went & haven't stopped going ever since. The wonderful, kind, loving people in those rooms help to keep me sober everyday and I help to keep them sober as well by attending meetings. It is beyond my knowledge how one or more alcoholics talking to other alcoholics with a primary goal to not drink just for today can work for me....I never thought it possible! I am blessed with God's Grace and extremely grateful to be sober today and to be assisting Emily with posting the next couple daily posts while she is on her trip. Welcome to all the new followers & we hope you keep readin, commenting and sharing how it is we can be of help to you.....YOU ARE NOT ALONE - that was one of the most important things for me - I was scared - once I found that I was not alone, I was able to take action & get my butt into gear to "help myself" - WE CAN ALL DO THIS!

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  23. Doggielover - LOL....thanks girl! Sorry I haven't been able to get back to ya - I'm gonna try again tomorrow - my house phone died & hopefully gettin a new one tomorrow. SOOOOOOOO PROUD OF YOU - can't believe it's gonna be 2 months already - you rock girl!! You can help me in the next couple days by sharing your experience, strentgh & hope with all our new friends here - and you are soooo good at doing that everyday anyway - so just keep on doin what you always do! Love ya girl!!!

    And Em - See.....I'm writing novellas already and you haven't even gotten out of cell service yet....I got this girl - go have fun & no worries!! Love ya & be safe!

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  24. I'm watching the show on the West Coast right now. Great service work!

    For those struggling with this disease, please know you are not alone. Emily's right --- sobriety has been the hardest thing I have done at times, but it has also brought me many rewards. Most importantly, being able to be the mother I was meant to be.

    The program of Alcoholics Anonymous has given me a plan and the tools to stay sober for over 6 years now.

    Recovery happens!

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  25. Congrats Darcy on 10 months!!! That's awesome girl!! If you feel up to it...share with us how you've done it, what struggles you've had along the way and how you've overcome said struggles....would be interested in finding the similarities in our stories as I am just 6 months sober....and grateful for every blessed day of those 6 months!

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  26. Beth - .....good for you girl! Sometimes we fall, but you're living proof that we can get back up & try again, try harder and stay sober. Proud of you! And don't beat yourself up over it - nothing positive can come from that! You're TAKING ACTION...and that's what counts! Keep on keepin on & keep comin back!

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  27. Today I watched the Dr. Phil show with a lot of mixed feelings. I am not an alcoholic but my mother has a major drinking problem. About a month ago she was rushed to the hospital, Docs said she had a minor stroke and she was diagnosed with liver problems as well. Now she's back home and back drinking too. So when I heard your story, about your blogue Emily, I thought this could be a great opportunity to understand a bit better this love/hate relationship involving alcoholism. So, from Montreal (Canada), I thank you all for expressing how you feel and what you are going through. Your stories are a great source of inspiration. Don't give up!

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  28. Hello all-

    I am so encouraged to read so many comments! I just got home from my meeting. I was not able to see the 1st airing of Em's show due to the Olympics and I've recorded it today, but am waiting until my kids are not around and my husband is not watching college baseball world series, ha!

    I have 18 months of sobriety and tonight at my meeting I was reminded YET again how grateful I am for my recovery. I grew up in an alcoholic home and drank for 14 years, quitting 2 times before quitting for good on 12/16/08 {{YEA Annette!!}}

    I have 3 kids, 3,6 & 7 and am married to a prosecutor. I work in a church, a Baptist church of all things, and am still working the steps with my sponsor. I am an alcoholic.

    I saw that someone wrote above that being sober is not hard if you work the program. The hard part for me was motivating myself to actually work the program sometimes. There WERE times that I thought, nevermind, I can't do this anymore. Or wondered if it was worth it. Or was I really THAT bad? {{Maybe I remembered it wrong. Ha, I didn't!!}}

    I have also started a blog that is linked over on the side of this one offhersauce.blogspot.com

    I would love to help support you as you are beginning this journey to sobriety, realizing I am still a work in progress......but its progress, not perfection, right?

    This IS a safe place.
    And there IS hope!
    Happy Thursday~

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  29. hi i am in australia watched the show and know i need help .So AA is where to go I persume. great work girl. min

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  30. Anonymous in Australia - AA is a great program that has worked miracles in my life....give it a try...if you don't like it, they don't hold you hostage or anything...it's a program that will work if you work it - you gotta be willing to "take action" - but all you need to get started is a "desire to stop drinking". Sounds like you have that - keep us updated as to what you decide to do! We're behind ya & right beside ya with loads of support!

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  31. Congratulations on your continuing sobriety and congratulations to those of you commenting as well! My partner of 8 years is currently halfway through a 28 day treatment program for his alcohol addiction. I know he really wants to be sober as his personal and professional life have been in turmoil due to his drinking and I'm really proud of him. At the same time he has been a heavy drinker throughout our whole relationship (although I was blissfully unaware for quite awhile at first because I was in love and thought he was perfect)and I'm scared because I don't know what to expect. I want to be supportive and help him but I don't know how. I don't drink so I think that will be a little bit of a bonus. He has quit before for about 2 months and he was so quiet and detached and I didn't know how to deal with that. I thought it was me. He wasn't as affectionate. I've spoken to him a several times since he has been in treatment and he sounds so happy and hopeful. He plans to attend meetings as often as he can when he returns and wants us to join the gym and do renos together on our home instead of paying someone else like we usually do and it's exciting to hear him being so enthusiastic. But I'm scared that he will see me differently being sober and I'm afraid of feeling left out as he makes new friends at his meetings and I worry that he will want to be with someone who he can relate to and who can relate to him. This is what I've always wanted-for him to be sober. I feel like I have put up with so much crap because of his drinking including a DUI, financial strain, job loss, loss of friends, stress, but I stood by him through it all because I love him. He is a great person-kind, generous, smart, romantic, loving, nonjudgemental and he loves his family. When he was drunk he was critical, hurtful, mean (not ever physically),rude, argumentative. He reduced me to tears every time he was drunk. But I've always felt that wasn't really who he was and always believed he would get sober as my dad did it 17 years ago. Any thoughts on my comments?

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  33. I am an alcoholic. I saw the Feb show and it didn't faze me. Tonite it did. I stopped before during my pregancy, but my marriage was not a happy one so I started again when my son was 2 years old. Husband left us because of it that was 3 years ago I am 49 my son is 11. I am grateful to Dr. Phil's show and to Emily. I am 2 days sober because I don't have the money...ha. tomorrow I get money and I am going to try and make it my 3rd day sober, I didn't go to work today because I am sick from not having a drink since Tuesday nite. I thank God I have been with same job for 15 years. I read all these comments and I have tears because some say 'by the Grace of God they're 9 years sober; like they may still relapse. That's scary to me. I am so glad for this website and will return tomorrow, good nite. thank you

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  34. There are so many great posts from those in recovery and from those who want sobriety. I'm not sure who posted on June 24, 9:35 pm, as they are 'anonymous' but you may have been referring to me as I have 9 years clean and sober..and your concern was that someone with that amount of years may relapse. I am choosing sobriety. If I chose to take a drink or choose to go back to my drug of choice, I would relapse. It does become a choice, especially once you have learned all the tools you need to stay sober. I have the tools. I do have to say that I haven't attended AA in several years. I did go to AA/NA 3 times a week for the first 3 years of my sobriety. After I was out of rehab, I did after care for about 2 years. Rehab may not be for everyone. Some may be able to jump into AA and that will be enough support for them, but for me, I had to get to the root of the addiction. First I tried 6 weeks of intensive outpatient treatment, which was 3 nights a week, 3 hrs. per night. It was actually a 4 week program, but I was kept longer, because I wasn't "getting it." Eventually I ended up committing myself to inpatient rehabilitation, which was a 30 day program. With inpatient and even outpatient treatment, you also receive counseling from a liscensed substance abuse counselor. I needed that extra help, because it was obvious that I had some internal issues going on which was feeding into my substance abuse, and if you don't get to the root of the problem, relapse is very high. I had several issues, but the main one was the unresolved pain and grief I had from losing my Dad as a young child, so I started the grieving process while in rehab. Alcoholism is a disease, but we also have a choice whether we want sobriety and a better life for ourselves and our family or if we want to pick the bottle back up. It is a choice. Being scared of relapse is a good thing, because that may be what keeps a person sober until they get it. In AA, you will hear different phrases such as "Fake it til you make it" My counselors always told me that a slip is (Something Lousy I Planned) I slipped a few times...and it was planned or at least a lousy choice I made or I wouldn't have done it...but the good thing about a slip is that you don't have to go into a full-blown relapse. You can jump right back on the band wagon towards sobriety. It's our choice. I have chosen sobriety. And over the years, it really has gotten so much easier, because sobriety has become a way of life. It's a lifestyle change. And it is absolutely 'by the Grace of God' that I have this new life that He has given me. It is by His mercy and grace that I have the strength to choose sobriety. I couldn't have done it without Him. For those who are getting involved in AA, I would recommend a sponsor, but not right away. Give it a couple weeks and see who may be the best person for you and you will know that by the program they are working and how many years of sobriety they have. A sponsor is crucial. They are someone you can call at anytime, they will help you on your journey to sobriety, they will hold you accountable. I highly recommend them. They are there to help and they have been where you are so they understand. Choose sobriety. You will find a new-found freedom and it is life-changing. It is far from easy, especially in the beginning, but stick with it. Work the program and you will make it. God Bless you all.

    ~Amanda

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  35. Hi. I live in South Africa and just saw the Dr Phil episode on which you appeared. I am a recovering alcoholic with 5 years sobriety. I'm also a wife and mother to 2 adult children. Just wanted to express my support for your journey.

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  36. Hmmmmm, watched Dr. Phil yesterday, drank last night! For some reason there just always seems to be a reason; either someone stops by to say HI, and of course I have to open up a bottle of wine to be social, or husband brings home a new unique beer to try. So we have several.

    The worst of it began about 5+ years ago after losing both my mom and dad, just 6 weeks apart; then remarried, left my job as I had worked for my dad for 20 years, moved to small town Iowa, my best friend died, my best dog died, broke my ankle, gained 50 pounds and for a former athlete THAT is tough, soooooo my new bff became wine. And more wine, became daily wine. Now I know I need help, though my husband just says that I only have a habit...he really doesn't want me to quit, loves to drink and wouldn't want to lose his drinking partner and definitely doesn't want me to attend AA meetings in our small town. It would look bad. So, I guess this is turning out to be a plea of help. Where do I go from here?

    Julie

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  37. Julie - Only YOU can decide if you are alcoholic or not. No one else can make that decision for you. A gal from my online support group tells the newcomers that there are 2 questions you need to ask yourself:

    1.) If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely; or

    2.) If when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you
    are probably alcoholic. "If that be the case, you may be suffering from an
    illness which only a spiritual experience will conquer."

    This is something that YOU personally & definitely have to decide for YOURSELF. I too drank AT bad things that were happening in my life - that's how I dealt with them....and you know what???...drinking NEVER made any of those bad things go away or get better....they ALWAYS made them worse.

    Julie, take some time for yourself & get REALLY honest with yourself....it's a great experience & feeling to do so. I think you might find some answers to your own questions.

    Hugs to you & here for ya!

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  38. Thanks, Annette. I have and will continue to get real with myself. Yup, definitely cannot do this without some sort of support. Now need to figure out how, though this site sure has me motivated and WANTING to change. So, thanks to everyone who is posting. It's nice to relate to some of you and hear about your recoveries.

    God Bless.

    Julie

    Julie

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  39. Hi Amanda this is the 9:35 anonynomous and I truly appreciate your words. I just felt writing what I was feeling at the time, like everyone else I have a long story of how alcoholism has taken control over me. I tried AA a few times but never found a happy place there, mostly old men..ha, I thought I couldn't relate to them and them to me although once I heard their stories, I can say I wasn't surprised they had issues just like me of family strife that drives one to drink. I am glad to hear there are other options besides AA, I haven't tried to look until today, 3 days sober now, but I'm having a hard time with it. Making that choice is very hard for me. Like Annette talking about 'manageability' I too am the amazing 'functioning alcoholic', nobody at work knows about me, family thinks I quit, I some how manage to hide it so well even from my son, or worse yet, he knows and doesn't want to confront me. I drink alone, by myself, don't go out, just stay home where I think I'm safe. I hate what I've let myself become at my age now. Started drinking at 14 and never quit except one time for 3 years. Anyways, I was glad you commented on my comments, I kept checking afterwards and there were none so I started my pitty party that even on this website nobody cares about me. I appreciate reading all the support everyone gives here to strangers. I agree I definetly need a sponsor to talk to, can't talk to anyone around my circle, they wouldn't, can't, or don't want to hear me, I've tried really. God Bless all of you on this website. I still remain anonymous for now.

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  40. Congratulations (Anonymous June 25, 4:34 pm) on the 3 days sober! (possibly 4 by now) This is my first time back on since sometime yesterday. I have heard, and found it to be true for me in the past, that it is easy to stop drinking...the hard part is not going back to it. In the beginning of trying to stay sober is extremely hard. Just take it one day at a time, even hour by hour, minute by minute. Whatever it takes to get through the overwhelming desire to drink. If you feel like drinking, this is a great place to come to and share your thoughts and feelings. You may or may not get an immediate response. But it helps just to email and share your struggle. It may help take away that craving. I'm not sure if you live in a big or small town. You may have mentioned above. I'd have to find you first post, but depending on the size of the town or city you live in, there may be several different meetings in your area. They may have a women's only meeting. I have nothing against men whatsoever, but women seem to understand women better and the same for men, but we do all have the same common goal and that is to maintain sobriety. There was a post in here somewhere and I can't remember by who, but someone had posted about us being alcoholics, we would drive 30-45 minutes to get alcohol if we had to, so why wouldn't we drive the same distance to find a meeting to maintain sobriety and to possibly find an AA meeting we feel comfortable at. I thought that was a good point. You definitely need a sponsor but until you find a meeting you feel comfortable at and find a sponsor, this is a great place to be. There is a lot of love, encouagement, and support here. Please keep coming back here and share what's going on. Staying sober is hard work but it can be done one day at a time. I wish you the best and I hope to see you continuing to share your progress and your struggles. We are either where you are or have been there at one time so we all understand. God Bless you and everyone who is sharing on this website. This is amazing! And remember, sobriety can happen!

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