Friday, April 30, 2010
Nerfed while in Prayer
Lord,
Please help us to do the things we should, to be to others kind and good. In all our work and all our play to grow more loving everyday. Amen
Buzzed Driving Prevention - Emily's Story
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DB9WxnfBILU&feature=youtube_gdata
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Thursday, April 29, 2010
My New Meditation Book
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
A Rash
Grateful Moment
the morning for my boys. It was something I strived for during my
drinking, and failed at often. I love seeing myself being the Mom I
always was, but that alcohol tried to snuff out. And on top of that
I'm SUPER grateful to be able to drive them to school again!!
Yeah...kids and mornings and driving!
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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
A Broken Heart
Break-ups sober SUCK! I've always drank my way through them, then promptly found an equally douchie dude to replace the last douche. This time I'm sober and know better -dang it- The un-healthy me says "What's wrong with a rebound man?" Ummm, a ton! If I don't deal with the issues that I have, like choosing emotionally unavailable men and find some understanding and peace as to why I put up with what I did in my last relationship, then the next one won't be healthy either, and that's just not okay with me. But for now all I know is it hurts, my heart hurts. I know, know...time and God will heal all wounds! Just wish he'd hurry!
Now off the pity-pot, I have a meeting to chair!
Monday, April 26, 2010
A Busy Day
Right now, right this second I feel tired, content and at peace...Thank you God.
It's going to take more that 5 minutes...
I always tell everyone "Give yourself a year and do the work you need to do on you." So now once again I need to take some of my own advice!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sobriety Sunday
Saturday, April 24, 2010
A Quiet Night
I do have one great and super rad thing to share...I stayed sober today! What about you?
Friday, April 23, 2010
Who God intended me to be...
Sometimes strength and growth come in the manner of tears, which it did for me all day today. But I'll take it, as I believe that... TEARS ARE GOD'S ANTIBIOTIC.
I think mostly I am crying because I am lonely, but what I have learned in the past few weeks is I'm never, ever alone...I always have God. And when I need a hug or to hear something from another person, God sends me an angel every time.
I can feel myself starting to evolve into a strong, confident woman, the woman God intended me to be...and that is 100% because of my sobriety!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Sex in the City
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Powerless
Do you forget what you say when you drink? Pass out, black out, pee your pants, have DUI's, lose jobs, families or your self respect over your drinking, do you know in your heart that you truly are an alcoholic, but continue to drink? Have you tried and tried and tried on your own and failed every time, each time kicking your ass even harder than the time before. Are you a fraction of the person you once were or know your supposed to be. Are you scared shitless that you'll never be able to survive the day, night or week without alcohol, much less ever actually be able to live life happily without it? You are the only one who can decided if you are powerless, but if this list hits home...?
There is a solution, but not until you admit there's a problem.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Build your foundation
I am not longer talking to the man I thought I would one day marry ...but I don't have to drink over it.
I am depressed and scared... but I don't have to drink over it.
I quit smoking...but I don't have to drink over it.
I built my foundatin on solid ground, I listened to the advice of the
people who had gone before me and I held on tight, prayed with all my might, and because of that
I don't need to drink over it.
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Every Women Should Know...
...How she feels about having kids...
...How to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining a friendship...
...When to try harder...and when to walk away...
...How to have a good time at a party she'd never choose to attend...
...How to ask for what she wants in a way that makes it most likely she'll get it...
...That she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents...
...That her childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over...
...What she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
...How to live alone even if she doesn't like it...
...Whom she can trust, whom she can't and why she shouldn't take it personally...
...Where to go...be it her best friend's kitchen table or a charming inn in the woods when her soul needs soothing...
I found this today and loved it! It is all stuff I am looking at in myself, and working on.
What are you working on?
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
We have found a new home
The challenging part is we are going from a 3 bedroom house into a 2 bedroom apartment...can you say down size? I actually have a friend that's a pro at organizing and moving, she came over today to help me look at it all in a new light.
GARAGE SALE...A BIG HUGE GARAGE SALE. I believe that is the answer.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Life showed up...
Well, the best answer I can give you is that life showed up. The things I had put on the back burner in order to get sober now have to be dealt with. I no longer have liquid courage, so some of them are very scary.
I try to share as much of myself as I can on here, so when life shows up your going to hear about it:). I often feel bad sharing the hard times at all, instead of being the ray of hope I wish I could be all the time. But I refuse to log into this blog everyday and bullshit you, I just won't. When life shows up, dealing with it sober can be hard -really hard- But it's possible, it really is. During my drinking days I couldn't ever imagine going a day without drinking, much less ever being able to go through the challenges of life sober and with grace...it's amazing!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Sobriety Sunday
Have a Happy and Wonderful Sunday!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Danaism
Friday, April 16, 2010
Girls Night Out
It was a very pure and innocent girls night out...we went to a meeting, out to dinner, and then took a walk around the park. It was nice! Not wild and crazy, but nice!
Today I am doing some packing, taking my boy out to lunch, and then let's see... probably more packing:)
Packing, Packing, Packing
Thursday, April 15, 2010
My Womens Meeting
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Grateful
I had a friend stop by just a bit ago and give me a little homework assignment...txt her 3 things I am grateful for every morning...and she will do the same back.
You know what I'm really grateful for...smart friends!
I'm off to bed...zzzzzz
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Family Night
Hope everyone is having a wonderful evening!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Healing
1. the recovery of something lost or impaired.
2. the curing of wellness or health.
3. Biblical: an act that God performs on ill or broken minds, bodies or broken relationships.
5. Personal: the restoration of spiritual, emotional, or physical wholeness.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Sobriety Sunday
What are yours? And what do you do about them?
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I'm not drunk...
good," when asked how I was doing over the past few weeks. I normally
try to be way more positive than that, but I don't have it in me right
now. The fact I am not running to the bottle is a miracle all on it's
own. -thank you God- I'm feeling a ton of feelings and the first thing
my alcoholic mind thinks is how can I make myself "feel" better...We
can go to a meeting, pray, call a friend, embrace that you are actually
feeling your feelings or take a nap... But I cannot drink, nor do I
want to, which is another total MIRACLE!!
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Friday, April 9, 2010
It's So Easy
if you take the right steps
doing the footwork
never to forget
His love
As you move onward and upward
through the road of life
being open to his touch
maintaining through strife
The dreams will happen
as they materialize to be true
knowing you trust your faith in God
and in You!
This beautiful inspirational poem was written by my dear friend Merry <3
Progress is Perfection
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Thankful
Next thing on my agenda...write a résumé.
Powerful Women
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
S.H.M.I.L.Y
A child tells a story about his grandparents....
As a little boy I remember finding notes all around my Grandparents house. My Grandma would hide one, then Grandpa would find it and hide one for her. After years and years of doing this they got very creative about hiding places. They could be found in the glove box, the fridge and even on the toilet paper roll. The one thing that stayed the same is what the note said...S.H.M.I.L.Y. We never knew what it meant, only that it meant something special to them. Last year my Grandmother died of cancer. At her funeral there was a large yellow ribbon that said S.H.M.I.L.Y. As my Grandpa stood up to say his final Good-bye, he softly sang..."See, see my love...See How Much I Love You." I consider myself lucky to have ever seen a love as great as theirs!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Happy Tuesday
I am finding out that I have some stuff I have held onto way too long. I'm not really a pack rat, but kind of...which is super hard to admit...I hate clutter...but over the years I have accumulated some...just like I have said before, the "old" is not coming with me...When I go to make the decision to get rid of something I still kind of like or that I think I may need one day, I will just have to deal with the little tug on my heart. See a tug on my heart...really!? It's just stuff...Good thing life is Progress not Perfection.
Monday, April 5, 2010
It's my Birthday
I really am a bratty Princess. I normally tell everyone like a month in advance that it is almost my Birthday and then celebrate it for not just the day, but the entire month. Not this year, I just didn't feel like it. I miss {name withheld} and it sucks, he did a decent job of spoiling me on my Birthday and its hard to be alone. I'm sure he's relieved to be off Princess duty this year:)
I have some major goals for this year. Stay sober, don't smoke, Simplify my life, eat healthy, work-out, embrace being a single Mom and try to cherish every moment of it. If all my goals are accomplished it may just be the best year of my life! WOW...look who has gotten off her pity pot.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Hoppy Easter!
candy last night and has one heck of a sugar hangover -poor thing-
This Easter is very special to me, I think mostly because I'm closer
to the Lord than I ever have been and also because I am in so much
graditude that even in hard times, when I'm not sure I'm going to make
it, he blesses me and warms my heart. Thank you Lord Jesus Christ for
saving all of us ding-dongs:) I love you!
Have a Hip-Hoppity Happy Easter Everyone!!
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
Positive Thinking -Day 12-
Friday, April 2, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
30 Days
Why didn't I tell you? I didn't tell you because I didn't actually think I could do it. I still can't believe I have. I was a REAL smoker. Smoking was the first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing I did before I went to bed. It was how I rewarded myself for a job well done, and how I soothed myself after a hard hit. The grief process has been painful and brutal and very much like when I quit drinking. I never want to do this again, never. So one day at a time, I will hopefully never smoke again.
How did I do it? God.