Friday, February 26, 2010

Trying on my own

I tried quitting on my own once, I know a lot of people have tried tons and tons of times on their own, but that's not my story.

I did try once, for a week. Life did got a little better, then I drank again, you know why, cause I'm an alcoholic and that's what we do without help. The rest of the time I was just trying to moderate my drinking, which never worked out. What I didn't get back then is that alcoholism is a progressive illness and if you keep drinking it gets worse. So after that 7 days, it got worse, way, way worse. Until I got help, I had no idea that there was any kind of solution. I hung around after my meeting today, because I have a lot going on right now and it's nice to be around people that understand me and that share the same solution.

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  1. I think it's great that you know what helped you in the first place and continues to help you now. My ex-husband is in detox for the second time (for an indefinite period this time), and I pray that he comes out with this realization. To me, it seems very simple to ask for help when you need it. I want to thank you for the insight you give me ... as I'm not an alcoholic myself, I have gotten very frustrated with my ex-husband in the past, and reading your thoughts has been invaluable in salvaging my relationship with him to any degree.

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  2. Question from ladybug:

    Hi, has anyone ever heard of a drug called naltrexone. After visiting Amazon.com looking for books on alchoholism, I came upon the book "Drinking yourself sober, the cure for alchoholism" The author claims that by taking this drug Naltrexone while drinking, the opiate receptors in the brain are blocked. The alchoholic does not receive the pleasure from drinking that they used to and eventually, the alchoholism is cured. The author claims that alchoholic behavior must be extinquished by re-learning that it is not a pleasurable experience. It claims that alchoholics can reduce and or eliminate their drinking with dignity in the privacy of their own home with an affordable prescription. I read the reviews and several alchoholics were raving about this drug and claim that it works. To me it sounds too easy. I was just wondering if anyone had heard of this. Any input would be appreciated.

    Thanks a million.

    Ladybug

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  3. Hi KLo, Must be something in the alcoholic brain that makes us different. I can't think of any alky's that find the concept of asking for help "very simple". You are a breath of fresh air, & I hope that simplicity rubs off on alot of us...

    Stick around, if you run into Kim on here, she may be able to assist you with your frustrations...

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  4. KLo, from the outside looking in, I'm sure it seems totally illogical. Okay, INSANE. And it IS - alcoholism is a chronic brain disease... our prefrontal cortex(es) are really messed up (I've seen scans of alcoholic & normal brains, it's scary).

    I guess my point is, we alcoholics do things that defy explanation in the face of clear evidence that to continue the behavior is dangerous and crazy. EXAMPLE: I, a professionally employed, condo owning, single mother, after spending 4 days in jail for a DUI conviction, was arrested, again, for DUI 4 days after I was released.

    Does it make any sense at all to have put myself in that position again, especially after learning first hand that the consequences totally SUCK? Nope, it doesn't, but I did it just the same. I could give you more examples of the insanity, but you probably have plenty of your own.

    You and your husband aren't alone. Hang in there and if you haven't tried Al-Anon, I highly recommend it.

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  5. Hi Folks: My name is Kimo and I am a alcoholic. I saw Emily on Dr.Phil a couple of weeks ago and felt compelled to share my story. I am 57 and began drinking when I was 15 and pretty much kept it up until it got completely out of control when I made 50 in 2003. I took my last drink on December 29, 2003. I was admitted into the hospital with severe acute pancreatitis. This was my 7th hospitalization for this illness which is caused from alcohol.It is the most painful experience a person can get and I endured it 7 times because I just would not stop drinking..That is how sinister this disease is. I knew I would get the pain back if I drank and still I would leave the hospital and hit the bottle as soon as I was discharged and in 2 or 3 months I would be hospitalized again. It finally got to the point that if I took another drink I would die. I have a lot of empathy for all alcoholics but more for the ones who really try to stop. It really helps to go to meetings and meet your brother and sister alcoholics and listen to the stories because you see yourself in their stories. I think this website is great to have a place that you can share and read others experiences. Aloha from Hawaii..Kimo

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  6. Visiting per Klo's recommendation :)

    Glad you're using the support that's there for you.

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  7. Ladybug -

    I have been taking the injection version of naltrexone (called Vivitrol). It has really successful for me in stopping cravings -- I can tell you without reservation that it DOES work. I get monthly injections because my doctor feels that the time release of the injectable is more consistent than taking the daily pills. It helped so much in the first few months when the cravings can be unbearable. I just had my sixth dose and that will be my last for now. However, I'd do it again in a heartbeat. AND, everyone I know who is on it says the same thing. I honestly don't know if I'd have been as successful (just made it to six months sober this week) had I not been on it.

    Hope that helps!

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  8. Ladybug - I'm so sorry, I misunderstood your post. Naltrexone stops cravings. It does not work to stop you from drinking. A man in my group therapy drank while taking it AND taking Antabuse at the same time. In other words, if you really want to drink, it won't stop you.

    I take it in addition to working a 12 step program, attending individual therapy and group therapy. It's not a miracle cure - but it sure helps with cravings.

    D.

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  9. Hi Darcy

    Thank you for your response. It sounded too good to be true. For right now I'm doing this with only the support I receive from this wonderful group. But if I relapse, I'll be checking into it for sure. Thanks so much for sharing your invaluable experience.

    Ladybug

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  10. naltrexone does nothing to help with detoxing, if your body is physically addicted to the alcohol, it will not help or ease the discomfort, it will not stop you from drinking, it will only aid with the craving thoughts. Please if you are physically addicted detox safely.....sudden removal of alcohol can cause detox seizures and in extreme cases dts....
    TCinNJ

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  11. I'm also trying to stop drinking on my own. So far I've been unsuccessful and I'm so frustrated. I'm scared to go to AA meetings - afraid of who'll I'll run into there; afraid of the time committment; afraid I'll just keep failing.....
    I started with drinking only wine about 10 years ago. One glass every couple of days became one glass nightly, then two, then a bottle, then hard liquor. Currently, it's not unusual for me to drink a half bottle of Jack Daniels a night. I'm so disgusted with myself - I feel terrible, I have gained 70 pounds over the years, I used to run marathons - now I don't exercise anymore. I am a professional woman who has been so blessed in her life - the only explanation I have for this drinking is a strong family history on my father's side of alcoholism. And I do know that I think I started drinking to ease the pain of becoming an early widow with 2 teenage girls who were out of control. I just couldn't cope by myself. And now 10 years have gone by and I really need some help. Sometimes when I wake in the morning, I feel like if I don't stop soon, I will die.
    I saw Emily on a DVR'd episode of Dr. Phil just yesterday. Emily's story and her current sobriety and happiness with life really spoke to me. I want that for myself.
    I am now one day sober! I want to make it 2, 3,4......... I welcome any advice, comments,etc.

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  12. Hi Deborah,
    I am a "newbie" to being sober, day 7 for me, so I do not have constructive advice for you...yet. However, I wanted/needed to post a comment to you telling you that you have made a very important first step by coming here, and joining all of us. We all feel so blessed to have Emily in our lives now, and this web site of Em.'s has given so many of us the messages (good and bad) that we need to read. We are all the same Deborah, we are what we are, and we are facing it by talking/writing about it. I do know that I won't be able to do this all by myself, so I will have to break down the walls that I have built and get myself to a meeting sometime soon. I am working on that too. Deborah, congratulations on coming here to this site, you are obviously ready to deal with this poison....good for you. Honestly, it is a struggle, but it feels so good to wake up in the morning without feeling so crappy. When you have the urge to drink, get on this site as soon as you can, read every message that you can. Fill your void with special treats like different teas, and chocolate. This makes you feel as if you are having a treat for not having a drink. We all have tough times, we have refereed to these times as the "witching hour". This is when you jump on this site right away, start reading and writing, this way your hands and your mind is busy. Then treat yourself to an indulgence like chocolate. It works for me. Thinking about you Deborah, and wishing you strength....you can do it!!!
    Little Peanut

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  13. Good advice newbee Peanut. Deborah, lots-o-fear in that first paragraph. Please don't be afraid of meetings & who you will see there. They are all there for the same reason & would love to have your face there as well. Your fears will start disappearing right away. Someone said at a meeting this morning,"You newcomers are the lifeblood of this organization." Very, very true, there were 4 of them there, & everyone was happy to see them...
    You sound like you're ready, only you know for sure...

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  14. Hang in there Deborah. I'm on day 7. You can do it. You will start to feel better, look better and get interested in life again.
    Occupy you time, get some teas, juices, etc. I'm starting a garden. Think of a new hobby, start running again, anything!!!
    Get on this site when you want to drink!!!

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