I want to call him today, I really do. I go through this every time I go any length without talking to him... Does he miss me? Is this hurting him as bad as it is hurting me? Then one of us calls, we catch up, talk about how much we miss each other, and boom, we're back in the same situation we were in before, yuck!. I need to get it through my head that if I call, the same guy will answer the phone and even though I love that guy and did consider him my best friend, he is the same guy who broke my heart, the same guy who told me a million times that he was never going to marry me ( yes he actually said that) unless I was just about ready to move on then he'd send mixed signals. Well guess what? I'm never going to marry him either, in fact, I'm never going to talk to him again. I mean really, at some point enough is enough. I know the definition of insanity, so about calling him today, probably not going to happen.
I know, I know "Never say Never". Okay I am going to try very hard not to call him one day at a time, and move on with my life:) Thanks for your support!