I want to call him today, I really do. I go through this every time I go any length without talking to him... Does he miss me? Is this hurting him as bad as it is hurting me? Then one of us calls, we catch up, talk about how much we miss each other, and boom, we're back in the same situation we were in before, yuck!. I need to get it through my head that if I call, the same guy will answer the phone and even though I love that guy and did consider him my best friend, he is the same guy who broke my heart, the same guy who told me a million times that he was never going to marry me ( yes he actually said that) unless I was just about ready to move on then he'd send mixed signals. Well guess what? I'm never going to marry him either, in fact, I'm never going to talk to him again. I mean really, at some point enough is enough. I know the definition of insanity, so about calling him today, probably not going to happen.
I know, I know "Never say Never". Okay I am going to try very hard not to call him one day at a time, and move on with my life:) Thanks for your support!
Not much of a love doctor, but unless he's totally brain dead & heartless, he's got to be missing you too.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you know what's best for you, sticking to it is tough & exiting that comfort zone & heading for the unknown is tough too, but, 95% of change is for the better, just hard to see that until you look from a little farther away. Prayer & patience,or pray for patience, whatever it takes. For what it's worth, I miss you when we don't connect at the same meeting...
Stay strong girl! I know it's hard for you right now, but I think you know you'll be better off in the long run. Pray for the strength to not pick up that phone! Try to busy yourself with something else. Call me if you need me.
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Hi guys!! Thanks R, I don't have the G man next week, so I will be there. I didn't call not to worry, instead a napped and watched trash TV all day! Em
ReplyDeleteVery proud of you! Keep it up . . ..one day at a time.
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Hi Emily...I did happen to see you on tv this afternoon. My name is Brenda and I am a grateful recovering addict. I was just reading some of your posts and got a kick out of this one...yes, the same man will answer! My definition of insanity is doing the same thing, knowing what will happen, and doing it anyways! That's pure insanity! I might have to send you an e-mail about Dave and Mike! LOL! Talk to you soon and congratulations on your new life! SIS - Brenda N.
ReplyDeleteMarriage is overrated. If that is the single thing blocking the relationship, and he is truely your best friend...Im just saying a ring on the finger and a piece of paper are meaningless in the end. Believe me, I've done it twice. But make sure you feel firm in yourself and your own life first becaue relationhips are stressful whether married or not.
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