Friday, January 8, 2010

Thy Will Be Done

Your thoughts are your will, because your thoughts become action.
You can't control your first thought, but you can control your second one.
Turn it over to God and don't take it back.

I heard each sentence of this from 3 different people, at 3 different times. I wonder if they know they changed my life, probably not. Giving your second thought to God, easier said than done right? It was how uncomfortable I was that made me give it a try. I quickly realized that if I turned the thought of wanting to drink over, it removed the obsession. This is what I said each time the thought of drinking popped in my head...

-God I offer myself to Thee, please take that stupid thought away from me-

He did. Then slowly I learned to do it with all my stupid thoughts. Now don't get me wrong, I don't do it perfectly. Sometimes I enjoy stewing in my crap, sick right? But most of the time I'm okay about turning it over. Once in awhile the obsession doesn't leave right away, then I know I need to take action, or call my sponsor or read the special prayer on page 63 of this really cool book. Sometimes I turn a little to many of my thoughts over and God will pop one back in my head and tell me... "that one is not stupid and your supposed to be thinking about it."

4 comments:

  1. This is the difficult part for me to overcome.
    After sooooo many years of thinking & acting on my own, thinking & believing I know what is best for me, my will be done. Turning over has been tough, but rewarding when accomplished. Happy to say I am getting better at this. It will take time to become more automatic. I will be patient, I will persevere, & I will be able to turn it over to the one who knows best. Glad this is progress, not perfection. Thanks for all your help everyone...

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  2. I guess we'll see how I handle this one since taking my 3rd Step last nite. I've felt great today and haven't really had anything to turn over yet, but I know something will come along. It felt good to say my normal prayer and the 3rd Step prayer this a.m. - I'm feeling confidant that my God is a Loving God and he can show me the way through anything that I can't handle by myself. Thy will, not my will, be done.

    Annette

    P.S. Wipsnide - Sorry we just missed each other on Chat - I'll look for you online again soon.

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  3. My Alanon sponsor use to tell me it is okay to sit on the pity-pot, just remember to flush when I get up. Yep, we can't control that first thought, but the second one is a choice. I need this reminder EVERY 24. Thanks for this one.

    namaste

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  4. Annetta, I was totally thinking of you when I wrote this!!

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