Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I couldn't imagine my Life without Alcohol

Before I got sober I couldn't imagine going 1 day without drinking (sure if I was so hung-over I couldn't get out of bed, otherwise I was drinking). How was I going to talk on the phone, go to the boys' games, hangout with friends, without drinking? I couldn't even fathom the idea. And for about 8 months of sobriety, doing all that stuff was hard and totally awkward. Then slowly as I was doing what I was supposed to be doing, without even noticing, I start enjoying that stuff sober, to a much greater degree. I am present now and focused on what I am doing. When before, I was always distracted and creating drama. I am so thankful I stuck in there, had I given up I would have never known how wonderful sobriety is!

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  1. I am glad there is a light at the end of this tunnel

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  2. It does sweetie, I promise! XO,Emily

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  3. I want what you're feeling Emily! I went 30 days and what did I do??? Fell - drank last nite and feel stupid today. Seeing my therapist tomorrow - she knows, I e-mailed her this a.m. - looked up addresses of local meetings today - gonna try to go to one tomorrow - I surrender - I can't do this by myself like I thought I could. Annette

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  4. Annette-

    Try, try again! Start again today. I am sober for one year today, we could have the same anniversary! Glad you are going to see your therapist and a meeting.....keep in touch-

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  5. Don't know where or how to start or even if I want to. I'm a stay at home mom of two elementary age boys, and can't imagine my life without alcohol. I'm one of those "functioning alcoholics " I'm not proud to say. I want to be normal and not think about drinking all the time- waking up every morning hating myself because of my lack of will power. I'm also a compulsive overeater and when I drink, I eat myself silly. I'm to the point of hating myself and ashamed to even pray anymore. Feel like I'm drowning more and more every day.

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  6. Help!! This is day #1 for me and I'm worried about the upcoming mother's day weekend--party Saturday, brunch on Sunday--without wine? I'm overwhelmed with these thoughts. Pretty ridiculous, I know. Any insights?

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