Friday, December 11, 2009

Home Alone

I am home all alone tonight. Beau is spending the night at a friends and Gavin is at his Dad's. I remember the nights of being alone in early sobriety being horrible. I was physically and mentally uncomfortable and painfully lonely. The only thing that got me through the weekends I didn't have my kids was watching reruns of America's Next Top Model. It was the one thing that made me feel a little bit better. I would practice saying "Easy breezy beautiful Covergirl" in the mirror. I got my chance to do it for real with the People photographer (so super cool!) Now being alone is something I cherish, something I look forward to. I never want to go back to that lonely place and I know as long as I stay sober I don't have to.


  1. When I find myself home alone now, I either really enjoy the peace and quiet, OR I get out to a meeting. We are fortunate to have so many now, about 300/week.

    When I came in there were FOUR meetings a week.

    You sound like an example of GOOD sobriety to me. All we have to do is one little thing--Don't Drink!

    After that is done, comes our real work: Learning how to live without that drink we gave up. Hence, the 12 Steps. I'm glad to know you, Emily. Stay with us with your Emilyisms, OK?

  2. Only 4 meetings a week, that must have been hard. In the beginning I sometimes went to 3 meetings a day, but at the least 1. I am also grad to have you in my life. Your comments always make me smile. I love blogging so far so I plan on sticking around!! Em