Weird right!? What I mean by that is if I wasn't an alcoholic I never would have taken the steps to get better. The steps I took to achieve sobriety gave me my life back. From the minute I walked into "class" and saw other sober people laughing and having fun I knew it could be done ( I actually thought what the hell are they laughing about, this is not funny) but they were laughing and I was not, it gave me hope. Today I giggle and laugh and in a weird way my alcoholism gave me that, if you know what I mean.