Saturday, November 21, 2009

Sobriety Sunday

Good Morning everyone! I received a request to share on my experience with having another alcoholic in your life. I will be taking requests all throughout the day:)

July 2008

I almost drank this weekend. The only thing that stopped me is God and the thought of having to stand up for another 30 days. (Name withheld) drank 4 days straight, it hurt so bad, I have never been so angry.

So I went to a different kind of meeting. I hated it. I would rather dump him, but I will give it 30 days. With the help of God I will stay calm, not say a word about his alcoholism and transmit nothing but love. The meeting I went to teaches you how to detach and maybe that's what I need to do.

May 2008
I am trying to find something to do on Sundays. Sundays suck. (Name withheld) hangs out and gets drunk with his friends all day. I am resentful. I loved drinking all day on Sundays, which is sad being that it is the day of rest and all. My sobriety is becoming more and more important to me. It is the most important thing in my life. Check Spelling

It took me a very long time, but I now know I can control no one else drinking. And If I try to I could lose the chance to be helpful somewhere down the line. I don't want to make it sound like I'm perfect with this, I am not. When you love someone it is really hard not to say anything especially if you're worried about them or it hurts you...I just do my best!

It took awhile but I did find something to do on Sundays... Sobriety Sundays...Thanks God!

Tomorrow is my sobriety date...I will be 2, explains some of my bratty behavior:)

1 comment:

  1. Emily,
    I'm five months sober and really struggling with my alcoholic husband. He maintains that he's a functioning alcoholic, but I'm so tired of his mental abuse. I've finally figured out that I've been an enabler and co-dependent all these years. I have been thinking lately that our marriage is probably doomed. I've tried to be reasonable about his drinking around me, even allowing wine or beer to remain in the house. But he really disgusts me on a regular basis, because he either acts like an idiot or he is mentally abusive.
    Tonight was the last straw. He has become very cavelier in drinking around me and is so "proud" of me because I can "handle it." I in turn have little patience for his nonsense and it shows in my chilly, dismissive behavior.
    Well, tonight I saw the open bottle of wine and thought about drinking it. Instead I dumped it down the drain. So he opened another bottle right in front of me and poured himself another glass. So I dumped that bottle as well. For the first time in 12 years of marriage he called me the "C" word tonight. I for the first time in as many years told him I hate him. I'm so scared about the future. I'm wondering if in addition to going to AA meetings, I should also be attending Al-Anon meetings. Sadly, I can't stand being around him anymore and feel like my sobriety will be the demise of our marriage. Otherwise- and this is no joke -- SOBRIETY IS THE BEST THING I EVER DID FOR MYSELF AND MY KIDS!