Thursday, November 12, 2009

Driving is a Privilage

Okay so when I got my DUI 2 years ago I lost my license for a year. It is normally only 3 months, but in Arizona if you refuse the blood test you automatically lose it for a year. I was a stubborn drunk and of course refused (I do not suggest doing that, they just come to the jail and take it from you anyway) Then 2 days sober I was on my way to a meeting at 6:00 in the morning and got pulled over and lost it for another year. I probably could have fought that ticket (I had yet to get anything in the mail from the DMV) but I knew it was suspended and I knew if I wanted to stay sober I had to start telling the truth.

Everyone asked me "How do you not drive when you have kids?" my answer is good friends. Thank you John, Tami, Monica, Seth, Nancy, Chris and the girls, Lori, Ken and everyone who gave me rides to meetings. And a special thanks to all the people who drove Beau and Gavin places. That was the hardest part, I knew I deserved it but they didn't. My kids are amazing they took it with grace and very rarely complained. Thank you everyone!

I am eligible to get my license back in 7 days. I cannot afford it yet, but it will be a big day in my sobriety. Did I feel sorry for myself for not being able to drive, sure a few times. But I knew that there was a reason for it and I respect that. I have prayed about getting it back and told God I don't want it if it's going to lead me to a relapse. So I will wait and respect the process.

And yes I have to have one of those damn that sucks!

Here are some of the many things I am excited to do......
Going to a meeting anytime I want
Going garage sale shopping with Gavie on Saturday mornings
Going to the mall all by myself
Going to a meeting anytime I want
Going to visit my girls in LA
Going to Church
Going to the grocery store when I need to
Taking Brinkley (my yellow Lab) to the dog park
Taking the kids places!