Thursday, November 19, 2009

Cravings

I often get asked if I still get cravings...not very often anymore and when I do I know what to do about it. In the beginning of sobriety I had cravings so bad they actually hurt. One day I sat on my hands on the couch and prayed until they went away. I look back now and think "God how did I do that?" that's the answer God. My sponsor and I got together when I was about 2 months sober, she took my hands and we said a special prayer. She told me that many peoples cravings went away after doing this step.Was it the power of words or God?...who cares! My cravings did go away, at least the ones that hurt did. It went from me thinking about drinking every 5 minutes or so, to ever hour, to a few times a day, to every few days, to once a week, to just when I was upset or in trigger places...crowded rooms, places that smell like alcohol, airports (I have yet to fly sober) and once in awhile when people drink on TV.

That's part of what I mean when I promise it gets better. I no longer have to drink or even think about drinking. It had a flippin death grip on me and today I am free of that. Thank God!

8 comments:

  1. I totally get the "places that smell like alcohol". I had that very feeling last night at dinner, a sushi place with a great bar. We walked in and I said to myself, this place just reeks like alcohol. It didn't make me crave it, it kind of repulsed me at that moment, but I am sure that is only because I was in a good place emotionally at the time. Funny that you would post that today.... but, there really are no coinsidences. It's all a well orchestrated plan.

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  2. yep, I can't watch a lot of stuff on TV with out the craving. Especially Mad Men. Otherwise it's jones city for me. Funny how I can almost smell and taste it. I'm a sick pup I guess. 28 day's sober! It's a comfort to know that this too shall pass. I haven't flown sober yet either. Chocolate helps. Em, thx for what you do!

    My_iTodd

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  3. yea for 28 days sober! it gets easier, until something hits you out of the blue and you seriously want to drink again.

    i had 11 months on monday. Gonna get that gold chip on dec 16th......

    i will be thinking of all the folks trying to stay sober this week during Thanksgiving. Will be my first one sober.......BLESSINGS-

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  4. I am so proud of you guys! Thank you for sharing. Are you guys facebook fans of emilyism.com. If not join...I really want people to share on the dicussion board there. You guys could really help each other and thats what this is all about! If you want me to do it on here I will write a post that you guys kind of "chat" on under it? What do you think, I would love feedback on that! Emily

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  5. Hi Em,
    Twenty years ago I was in AA, successfully so, but over the last 20 I have forgotten almost everything I learned. It took a spiritual awakening for me to "get it". The surrendering, the humbling, it's so very hard for me. I can't talk at meetings, I pass, yet I am so lonely and falling back every weekend because of it. I want to be clean of alchohol. I love the feeling...but I can't go it alone...but I can't ask for help.

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  6. What do you mean you can't ask for help...you just did. Try a small womens meeting stand up if your in your first 30 days and stick around after the meeting. Give that a try and if it doesn't work e-mail me I have a few other tricks. Emily

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  7. Thank you! We have several womens meetings here in Houston, I will attend.

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  8. I need help too, desperately, but I am terrified of this new journey.....can I handle it?.....read this story in People mag too and I'm so glad it is helping some of those that need help come forward....I don't know where to start because I'm ashamed and don't want to tell anyone.......advice, please?????????

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